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2009-09-21T11:11:00.002+08:00

so much yet so litle things to do..
it has been a month since i blogged. OH ITS 11.11 NOW!!!
hurhurs~~

ermmm, nth much to say eh... cz all i wan say de, now no more the "feel" to say xD
just that last friday went out with B.O.F, hd a lotta fun... its quite a stpi name but it stands for best of friends kk... not sure the peple im talking about knows thtim talking about them.. hahas..

now have to chiong mugging... as well as learning songs for performance at esplanade at the end of the year... practice has been tough these few pratice.. wondering whats in their minds.. i really hope they can be sensible enough to think what we are going through.. it seriously aren't a good feeling..

anyways, going study later with liyun so i hae to take my lunch now... byex.

why do time pass so fast?? ~haix~

2009-08-23T13:13:00.003+08:00

ok i know i should be reading my physics, maths, etc
i have nth much to say, so just let me crap.
i want to go OUT!!! shop, movie, slack with my friends!!
so sad my birthday wasnt really celebrated by going out, although i had a fun day...
but once exams are over im gonna plan activities!!! hahahaha...
prepare to get my invitation ba!! hahas.
hmm, nth much these days.. except that common test is going on and thr is choir on next fri and teachers' day celebration on mon... quite busy~ but fun! :) just hopes everything goes smoothly for me...
oh.. and the objective of this post....
i wanna say thanks to those who gave me belated pressies.

namely:

adelyn for the bookmark
angela (phua) for the bookmark
vivian for the precious moment's gift
dorisa for the BOF notebook! (gawd. THANKS ALOTTTTTTT)

a very big THANK YOU from MEEEE :)

ok i gotta go...

all the best to those who have exams ;D

thanks

2009-08-16T21:29:00.006+08:00

I am very thankful to all who made me happy on my birthday.
So sad that i missed the date to post... the wonderful date...
15 AUGUST 2009
Once again, i wanna wish
MR SHAH & DORCAS who has the same birthday as me...
A VERY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

On this very special day, i woke up at 7am, prepare, met LiYun and set off to bright vision hospital to do some voluntary work. Isn’t it meaningful? To do voluntary work on ur birthday. Hahas. then met Wanling and jingru and went to register first. waited for ms lau and went in. at first we were suppose to help the handicaps, help them by pushing them to cut their hair, but there weren’t enough hair dressers and yet a lot of volunteers, so we went to help ms lau with the curtains. jieyi and shehwa came late... so we started first. out of the 34 she has, we managed to finish 15! :) so proud. Hahas. we were supposed to tear off the wrong part, take out the threads and stuff and fold it. Wanling was brilliant to think of different people to take charge of different stuff... Hahas. me and LiYun to do the folding, jieyi and jingru to take off the threads and shehwa and Wanling to tear of the hemming. we switched roles in the middle, but found out that the original planning was better... Hahas, so we went back...and throughout the three hours, we spent about 2hours listening to BOF and you're my destiny songs :) we even singed along, so 3h past like 3 mins.. very meaningful lorhs... overall experience was nice :)

doing work ;D and the work we have done ;D

after the whole thing... we took a few quick shots.. the only one not blurred :) hahas.

and the cake jieyi lihui liyun bout for me, with the visitor tags we had.

then we parted here. shehwa went for tuition and jingru home, while the other 3 came my grandma's for lunch. beehoon, curry chicken, nugget, honey chicken wings. LiYun ate 7 chicken wings man! jieyi 5, i guess, and me 3. not sure about Wanling though. she was reporting the results and never says about herself... Hahas... then they left and i bath and we went out to compass point... 1st time go compass so shuang. want what, almost can buy all... SHOPPING SPREE!!! we spent 2h in Giordano Hahas... and the wenling the sales girl was so cute! Hahas. she was serving me, my mom, my godma at the same time, then my sis, my aunt and Leticia came in then she was like... very confused about our relationship cause she say we look alike. HAHAS... anyways, then we bought Mac and went home. cut the cake and went home. reached home at 8.25pm and watched BOF of course! Hahas... turned out all i watch before... Hahas. 11pm, very tired and slept... didn’t come online...

some of the very creatve presents i got...

this was from shehwa... (i love the wrapping paper!) and jialin... super creative card+roses!

cake bought by shehwa but paid by liyun, jieyi and lihui!

above is almost all cards and angbaos i received.

below is almost all the presents i received...

the cake ordered by myself... Hahas..

today, morning when out, for lunch at auntie jasmine's to celebrate her daughter's 1st year. went earlier cause my sis and leticia wanted to swim... hmm, not much comment then came home, slept for 1h and went paternal grandma's house. boring... nth liaos.

anyways, if u has read the report below, i dare say is quite true. at least 90% lehs... so it’s worth a try. a very good way to reflect on yourself :)

lastly, before i go, i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to all the people listed below and more...
(regarding my birthday only)

mummy for the miss sunshine pouch
daddy for the cake
auntie dorothy for the wishes + ang bao
mei mei for saying happy birthday
Leticia for saying happy birthday
godma for the curry and the ang bao
uncle for the ang bao
3rd grand auntie for the ang bao
uncle soon hoe for the ang bao
ahma for the ang bao
auntie chris for the pencil case and notebooks
jialin (Sim) for your card + wishes
shehwa for your notebook + buying the cake for me
eugenia for your card + tiger
jasmine for your card + tiger
jiayu for your card + tiger
shuwei for your wishes
mr shah for your wishes
lihui for your cake + pouch and care bear
liyun for your wishes + cake + pouch and care bear + earrings
jieyi for your wishes + cake + pouch and care bear
wanling for your card + teddy
jingru for your card
pearlyn for your wishes
dorcas for your wishes
qimin for your wishes
dorisa for your wishes
laureen for your wishes
adelyn for your wishes
cassandra for your wishes
pamela for your wishes
fion for your wishes
joyce ting for your wishes
denise tan for your wishes
erica for your wishes
jerilene for your wishes
jessica for your wishes
yanting for your wishes
vivian for your wishes
jialin (tan) for your wishes
2nd grand auntie for the ang bao
auntie amanda for the pouch/clutch/bag

please pardon me if i missed out you because i don’t have superb memory... sorry...

report about me O.O

2009-08-16T20:42:00.004+08:00

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

The following is a description of your basic stance towards life, the way others see you, the way you come across, the face you show to the world. In Chapter 3 you will read about the "The Inner You: Your Real Motivation", which describes the kind of person you are at heart and where your true priorities lie. Read this chapter and the next one and compare them - there may be significant differences between them, in which case "the inner you" may not shine through and others are in for some surprises when they get to know you at a more than superficial level. This chapter describes the costume you wear, your role in life, while Chapter 3 talks about the real person inside the costume.

Sagittarius Rising:
High-spirited, enthusiastic, and exuberant, you love adventure, change, exploring new territory, and are not happy confined to the same safe, familiar, secure little world all the time. You have a strong restlessness and yearning for something greater than anything you've yet experienced, and you often live in your dreams and visions for the future.
You tend to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else and you like to keep moving, either literally or figuratively. Idealistic and optimistic, you always expect something better ahead. You love to have a goal, something to aim for, but once you achieve it you are on to something else. You are ever on the lookout for new opportunities and you are a gambler, willing to take risks and to break new ground. The possibility of discovering something new is what makes life interesting for you. You have great faith in life and bounce back quickly from disappointment and failure.
Freedom-loving and independent, you cannot tolerate being caged for very long, and friends and loved ones must respect your need for freedom of movement. Binding commitments and responsibilities often weigh heavily upon you and you may resist "growing up" and taking on the limitations of adult life.
You are friendly and outgoing and have a great sense of fun and playfulness. You are also philosophically minded and often quite outspoken about your convictions and beliefs. Sometimes you get carried away with your enthusiasm of the moment and you tend to exaggerate. You are often a big talker, a big promiser, and you are usually pretty convincing. You do everything in a big way, a generous way. You like to have the best, and you heartily dislike stinginess, littleness, or pettiness. Your vision is always large. You are able to perceive the big picture, general patterns and principles, and are well suited to politics, business, higher education or religion.
Other people see you as a good sport and a good friend, but one who is not always consistent and dependable. You may also be seen as a wise person since you do not get bogged down in pettiness and trivialities, and are able to communicate a larger way of looking at situations, one that opens up new potentials. You are a person who believes in miracles, grace, or just plain good luck, someone who never gives up on life, and you inspire and encourage others to keep looking forward.

Moon Sextile Asc.:
Your emotional instincts, feelings, and intuition play a big part in the decisions you make and how you interact with the world, and generally your feelings are quite accurate and helpful to you. Also, establishing emotional rapport with the people you meet on a day to day level is rather easy for you. You appear somewhat sympathetic and concerned, so that others are drawn to you, especially when they need guidance or help.

Saturn Sextile Asc.:
You appear responsible, conscientious, and solid --qualities which encourage others to take you seriously. You are unlikely to present yourself as more than you are, and this humility is often endearing, or at least appealing, to others. Even as a youth, you seemed mature for your age.Asc. Conjunct Moon/Saturn
You tend to suppress your feelings and may even pretend that you don't have any, therefore appearing rather cold. You feel separated from others and are inclined to isolate yourself. Others see you as a reserved, detached and serious person.Asc. Opposition Jupiter/Uranus You have a strong desire to constantly be in the limelight and consider second place already as failure. Very self-confident, you have the ability to mold your surrounding to your own needs and are likely to furnish your home according to your taste.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

Ascendant in Sagittarius and Sun in Capricorn:
Your optimism and enthusiasm (mentioned in the previous chapter), is balanced by an innate objectivity, detachment, and pragmatic realism that usually keeps your idealistic ventures on a sound course. Though you appear confident and positive, you are often quite skeptical and much more careful than you seem. And while it's true that you like to play, you are also serious about your work and commitments.

Sun in Capricorn:
Serious, disciplined, and quietly ambitious, you are driven to prove yourself and to achieve material accomplishments and success. Your work, your position in the world, and your contributions to society are very important to you. You will persevere through enormous hardship and frustration in order to reach a goal you have set for yourself, and you often sacrifice much in the area of personal relationships and home life in order to do so.
You have a thoughtful, quiet, and self-contained disposition and do not readily show your inner feelings and needs. You seem to be always in control, capable, efficient, and strong. You are often the person in the family or group who is given more responsibility (and more work) than the others. You are highly conscientious and even as a child you possessed great maturity, soberness, and worldly wisdom.
You are basically a pragmatic realist, and though you may have all sorts of dreams, ideals and colorful theories, you feel that the ultimate test of a concept is its practical usefulness. You have an innate shrewdness and business sense, and there is a bit of the cynic in you as well.
You are clear-headed, detached and objective, and are not swayed by emotional dramatics. Often you are authoritarian -strictly fair, but without mercy. You have a great respect for tradition and even if you do not agree with certain laws, you will abide by them or work to change them, but never flagrantly disregard them. Careful and conservative, you play by the rules.
You are subtle, understated, quiet, deep, not easy to know intimately, and never superficial. You are a modest person and sometimes overly self-critical. Giving yourself (and others) permission to feel, to play, to be spontaneous and silly, and to be weak and vulnerable sometimes, isn't easy for you.
Your strong points are your depth and thoroughness, patience, tenacity, and faithfulness. Your faults are a tendency to be rigid and inflexible, and too serious.

Sun in 1st house:
You have a clear sense of yourself and therefore convey a strong impression to others of who you are and what you want. Assertive and self-motivated, you can be a leader - one whom others look to for direction - but you compete and often clash with other strong individuals. You feel a need to be in control of your own life and you can be too self-involved, too immersed in your own interests, and oblivious to others at times.

Sun Conjunct Mercury:
You tend to see things from your perspective only and to be rather subjective. You also enjoy talking and expressing your views but you don't always listen as well. You have a clear mind, a love of learning and new experiences, and need constant mental stimulation and activity.

Sun Square Jupiter:
You have big aspirations and the desire to succeed in life in a grand way. You tend to exaggerate, to promise more than is possible, and to misjudge through being overly optimistic. However, you never lose your hopes for the future. Restlessness and discontent with responsibilities and limitations in life can be troublesome for you.

Sun Sextile Neptune:
You are very open and receptive to the spiritual, intangible, and subtle realms, and can easily receive or give conscious guidance based on your inner attunement. You take many things for granted, such as the existence of an afterlife or the effects of subtle influences like aromatherapy, spiritual healing, etc. These things seem obvious to you, whereas to many people they are a matter of conjecture or even illusory. You may not realize you have spiritual gifts because they come so naturally to you.

Sun Trine Pluto:
You have a deep belief in your own power and your ability to survive any change and to emerge victoriously from any difficulty. You have tremendous inner resources and strength. Intense, strong willed, and zealous, you pursue your desires and goals with complete dedication and singleness of purpose, and you may be somewhat compulsive, even fanatical at times. You like to live intensely and have no respect for people who are weak, who avoid confronting life and their own destiny.Sun Conjunct Mercury/Mars
You tend to think and act bravely and have a positive and firm demeanor. You have what it takes to make your own way in life. You may be a bit excitable, but never shy away from a good argument.

Section 3: Your Elemental Nature
Your fundamental needs, values, and orientation towards life are symbolized by the four astrological elements. Each person has their own unique balance of these four basic energies: fire (warmth, inspiration, enthusiasm), earth (practicality, realism, material interests), air (social and intellectual qualities), and water (emotional needs and feelings).
Your "elemental make-up" is described below. Remember that most people are "unbalanced" or lopsided, and if you are lacking or deficient in a certain element (or elements), it simply means that you need to consciously develop that aspect of yourself to learn to appreciate and/or to work harder in that dimension of life.
Sometimes we overvalue the element that we are least endowed with, sensing it as a lack within ourselves, but more often we neglect or ignore it. The qualities described below will be reiterated and explained in more detail in the following chapters.Air and Earth are Strong (F,E,A,W Scores = 10,22,16,1):
You value order and security in your life and prefer dealing with known quantities, following clearly defined guidelines in order to achieve your aims. Reason rather than emotion rules you, and you think in clear, practical, no-nonsense terms. You are uncomfortable with ambiguity, emotional impulsiveness or extremism, and things which cannot be explained in rational terms. Even spiritual or mystical realms, if you have any interest in such things at all, must have either some scientific basis or be proven to you through your own experience and practice.
You think a situation through thoroughly before deciding upon a course of action, assessing and analyzing the matter carefully, and can be relied upon to come to a fair, reasonable, and sensible solution to whatever confronts you.
You are able to handle practical matters very efficiently, using both deductive reasoning ability and manual skill. However, it is easy for you to become overly "adult" and to lose touch with the spontaneous, playful, vibrant, and childlike side of yourself. You can become too organized and controlled, not allowing your emotions or creative, playful impulses full expression, and a certain dryness or emptiness will result. You need to learn to appreciate a certain degree of "creative chaos"!Water is Weak (F,E,A,W Scores = 10,22,16,1):
You have difficulty dealing with your own and others' emotions. Feelings and the emotional reality of a situation are often ignored or discounted by you and you may thus seem insensitive or uncaring to others. Deep emotional rapport, empathy, compassion, and sensitivity to the feelings of others is something that you need to develop, and will be in more evidence later in life rather than in your youth.
Though you may appear emotionally self-sufficient or above it all, your denied feelings can result in physical problems, so it is wise and important for you to learn to acknowledge and express all of your emotions.
You may also find that you crave a great deal of liquid, or to live near bodies of water, as a way to gain balance.Earth and Air are Strong and Ascendant is in Fire sign: As we shall see in the next chapter, you express yourself in an energetic manner, which enables you to put your practical ideas into action.

Section 4: Mental Interests and Abilities

Mercury in Capricorn:
Clear, objective, and realistic, you are unimpressed by exaggerated claims or promises. You insist upon being shown facts to back up any statement you hear, and your natural skepticism often borders on cynicism. You approach problems clearly and rationally and maintain your poise and objectivity even in the midst of critical situations. Anyone seeking your advice is certain to get an unemotional and unbiased assessment of their situation, and you therefore make a good arbitrator or judge. You are thorough, conscientious, and disciplined in your thinking, and have an aptitude for business, organization, and administration. You are also a good strategist, and will plan and patiently follow a realistic course which will lead to your eventual success. Serious-minded and studious, you enjoy quiet time alone for thinking or reading.

Mercury in 1st house:
You are quite verbal and communicative and eager to get your own ideas and opinions across to others. You say what is on your mind. Others see you as a lively, intelligent person, and perhaps something of a chatterbox at times.

Mercury Square Jupiter:
You have an abundance of ideas, interests, and plans for the future, and may find it difficult to focus on any particular area. You are not a specialist for you seek to get the broad overview, to see the whole picture rather than closely examining any of its component parts. Philosophy, religion, or other areas of theoretical speculation interest you.
You also possess foresight, numerous enterprising ideas, and a gambling instinct, all of which contribute to your success in the world of business. However, your optimism and grand vision can get you in trouble too; you sometimes promise more than you can deliver, gloss over important details that come back to haunt you later, and overestimate the potential of an idea or product.
Traveling is a great love of yours, especially if there is a mind-expanding or educational aspect involved, and you may travel extensively in your work.
Consulting or education would be good fields for you.

Mercury Trine Uranus:
Independent and freethinking, you dislike being told what to do and how to do it, and you especially do not like being told how to think, for you insist on discovering your own truth. You do well in a rather unstructured environment that allows you to make your own decisions and to respond to the needs of the moment, rather than following a routine, standardized way of doing things. You are also suited to a fast-paced atmosphere, which you find exciting and stimulating. Your mind functions in an intuitive, nonlinear fashion and sudden insights and flashes of inspiration often come to you "out of the blue". You have an aptitude for science and new technologies especially interest you. You also have a penchant for astrology or other esoteric sciences.

Mercury Trine Pluto:
Your mind is deep and penetrating and you are interested in anything secret, mysterious, or hidden, including the deeper aspects of the human psyche. You possess an aptitude for private investigation, psychology and research work. You are also drawn to esoteric or occult studies.Mercury Conjunct Mars/Asc.
You have a tendency to show other people that you are someone to be reckoned with. You are inclined to be irritable, easily angered, and quick to take offense. You also may have a sharp tongue and are likely to have frequent quarrels or disputes.

Section 5: Emotions: Moods, Feelings, Romance

Moon in Libra:
Your desire for harmonious relationships and surroundings is so strong that you avoid personal confrontations or any expression of intense, unpleasant emotions. You are an idealist who would like to paint the world in pastel colors, and live in peace and harmony with others at all times. You are able to see points of similarity and unity with people who are vastly different from yourself, and befriend many different types of people. You are a considerate and thoughtful friend, and have a real flair for making others feel accepted and appreciated. Inwardly you are often torn with indecision and are much more at odds with yourself than others would ever guess from your smooth, even disposition.

Moon in 10th house:
You work well with the public and have an instinct for what the public wants and will respond to. Having a "nest" is not especially important to you, and you may invest more of your emotional energy into your career or public life than in your private life. Providing for and caring for others in a professional capacity is very likely.

Moon Square Mars:
You are temperamental and impatient and can be very difficult to live with. You tend to respond with a temper tantrum (overt or subtle) if your desires are frustrated. You become very irritable and bad-tempered if you do not have enough vigorous physical activities or other outlets for your aggressive, feisty spirit.

Venus in Aquarius:
You are open and unconventional in your attitude towards love, romance, and sex. You enjoy socializing, bringing people together, and having many friends of both sexes. You value friendship very highly and are, in fact, more comfortable being a friend than a lover. You desire an intellectual rapport or spiritual bond with your love partner, but deep intimacy and emotional bonding do not come easily to you. The role of "husband" or "wife" in the traditional sense doesn't appeal to you, and you abhor jealousy and possessiveness since you feel that no person truly "belongs" to another. You appreciate a love partner who will allow you plenty of freedom and is not very emotionally demanding.

Venus in 2nd house:
For you, caring and affection must be expressed tangibly, and you love giving and receiving gifts. You value luxury, comfort, and elegance very highly and appreciate beautiful things. You can be self-indulgent and extravagant. Being overly possessive of people you love and of your belongings is something you need to beware of.

Venus Conjunct Saturn:
Intimacy does not come easily to you and you may appear cold or unfeeling to others due to your emotional reserve and caution. Perhaps due to painful relationships and separations in your early life, you do not trust others very easily and it takes a long time to take down all of your barriers and defenses. You may feel that you have few friends or people that really care about you. You need to learn to value and love yourself more and to express your appreciation for others more openly.

Venus Square Neptune:
You have a very romantic, idealistic vision of love and may be disillusioned to discover that no real, flesh and blood human being ever quite lives up to your dream image of the Perfect Love. Though you frequently fantasize about love and romance, you may avoid becoming intimately involved with anyone or making definite commitments. You can be evasive and dishonest with yourself and others, when it comes to love. Some of your love yearnings may be expressed through art, music, or an involvement with mysticism.Venus Conjunct Jupiter/Asc.
Your relationship to people in your personal environment is very affectionate. You enjoy the company of other people and have a harmonious attitude toward them. You also have a sense of art and may decorate your surroundings very artistically.

Section 6: Drive and Ambition: How You Achieve Your Goals

Mars in Capricorn:
You are serious about your ambitions, and disciplined, dedicated, and tenacious in pursuing your objectives. Your drive and energy are directed toward practical material accomplishment and achieving concrete results. You also strive to be in a position of authority and social influence; you enjoy being the person who is in command.
You are hard-working and capable of foregoing immediate comfort in order to achieve your long-range goals. You can easily become a workaholic and are very responsible and conscientious about doing a thorough job.
Realistic and pragmatic, you are an excellent strategist. You attain success by formulating a conservative and workable plan and following through with it. You are not a gambler when it comes to attaining your goals; you depend on your own efforts and perseverance rather than good fortune. You have a natural shrewdness and instinct for business or organizational management.

Mars in 1st house:
You are a doer and an achiever. Energetic, courageous, and often impatient, you will forge ahead with your plans regardless of others' reservations. In fact, you often feel other people get in your way and you prefer working on your own. You are active, assertive, and rather competitive as well.

Jupiter Opposition MC:
You may not feel like you have to work very hard or strive to achieve, either because you come from a very comfortable background, or because inner contentment and satisfaction are more important to you than outward accomplishment. You could be quite successful in real estate, agriculture, or anything involving land.

Mercury Square MC:
To achieve your long-range goals and ambitions, the process must be interesting and mentally stimulating, as you get bored with work that isn't challenging intellectually. You need variety and social stimulation as well. One problem you may have is saying the wrong thing at the wrong time, or to the wrong person. You need to watch your words. Your tongue or even your sense of humor can get you in trouble with superiors at times.MC Conjunct Mercury/N. Node You have a desire to teach other people what you know and may be interested in a career that serves the public through some educational programs. You are a very stimulating companion, but want to be the central figure in dicussions.

Section 7: Growth and Expansion: Areas That You Enjoy

Jupiter in Aries:
You believe strongly in the power of positivity and in each individual's ability to make life anything desired through one's own initiative and effort. The more you rely on yourself, the better you feel, and you find it difficult to ask for or accept outside help. The joy of competing (and especially winning!) runs deep in you.

Jupiter in 4th house:
You are very hospitable and love having a large, comfortable, gracious home where you can welcome guests as well as family. Your childhood or heritage was very nourishing and supportive, giving you a solid, emotionally secure basis for your life, and you are therefore inclined to share what you have freely and generously.
Investing in your home or real estate is likely to be very rewarding for you.

Jupiter Quincunx Uranus:
There is an uneasy balance within you between personal independence and freedom of thought versus being part of a collective, sharing beliefs and goals with others. Even if popularity is important to you, you can't seem to help occasionally injecting a bit of controversy, or rebelling against the well-established way of things. Group situations or efforts may interest you, then feel uncomfortable once you get involved.

Jupiter Quincunx Pluto:
You are apt to have very strong convictions and beliefs, and some might say you border on being fanatical. At some point in your life, the urge to act on these beliefs may put you in a questionable position with your superiors, or even the law of the land.
On another level, you may have inordinate ambitions and unless you take care not to overstep yourself, a fall due to greed or arrogance could result.Jupiter Opposition Mercury/N. Node You are likely to conduct a lively correspondence with other people and cultivate large social contacts. You also may combine your social activity with business and could form a successful business partnership.

Section 8: Areas That Challenge You Or Are Difficult For You

Saturn in Aquarius:
You have an innate distrust of groups and/or a cynical attitude toward society that may leave you feeling out of step and unable to participate in activities with your peers. Overcoming a sense of aloofness and alienation from others is an important task for you.

Saturn in 2nd house:
Your fears revolve around money and material security, and you work very hard to ensure that your assets are solid. You may be very conservative, even stingy, with your money because you are afraid there won't be enough. You may turn this fear around and become very shrewd about investments and financial matters.

Saturn Square Neptune:
You strive and struggle a great deal with your ideals or spiritual aspirations. You may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and serious study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or you may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals, but never quite divorce yourself completely from your idealistic concerns.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which you instinctively and habitually revert to when under stress - a mostly unconscious process and one which you are apt to overdo because it is so familiar and thus easy for you. The direction you need to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.N.

Node in Cancer:
When under stress you are apt to close down the flow of your emotions, ignoring your needs and feelings in order to do what you perceive as your duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation require. This can lead to a certain rigidity and hardness. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of you makes life more a burden than an adventure.
Developing tenderness, caring, feeling, and the feminine, nurturing aspects of yourself is an important step in your unfolding. You need to learn how to nourish and lovingly attend to both yourself and others. Letting yourself be taken care of sometimes is okay!

N. Node in 7th house:
The arena you are most likely to wrestle with these issues is in your marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships. You may see the qualities you need to develop more fully (described above) in your partner. It is important for you to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in your life who express such attributes, as well as developing them yourself. Put energy and attention into learning about others, and about yourself through others.
The specific habits which are likely to hold you back, or which you are prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:N. Node Opposition Mercury:Excessive thinking, rationalizing, talking, and overuse or misuse of your intellectual abilities, as well as dissipating your energy in trivial activities.N. Node Opposition Mars/Asc.
You are a good team worker and have the ability to lead others. Your meetings and associations with others tend to be harmonious and cooperative. You also may have a very industrious family and tend to be strongly tied to them.N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/MC You have a very engaging manner in the company of others and your association with other people is likely to be harmonious. Some of your connections may prove to be helpful to you with your plans.

Section 9: Originality and Imagination Areas Where You Are Creative, Unique, Unstable, or Compulsive

Uranus in 9th house:
You are unconventional, even iconoclastic, in your attitude toward religion, philosophy, and politics. You tend to see traditional religion as restrictive, meaningless ritual with little to offer you, and you're eager to experiment with other, alternative pathways. You have lots of creative, innovative ideas and you often feel that others are unwilling to take risks and venture out of their deeply ingrained perspectives and views.

Neptune in 11th house:
You are idealistic in your social and political outlook, and your ideals may impel you to join clubs, organizations, communities of like-minded people, or groups that share your vision and your concerns.

Pluto in 9th house:
You have strong philosophical views and there are times in your life when you passionately crusade for a cause that you deem noble and of utmost importance. Although your intentions are good, you are not as objective as you think you are, and your views are more colored by personal experiences and concerns than you realize. Nevertheless, you can also be instrumental in bringing about positive change if you can avoid being dogmatic. Also, you may radically change or revise your own personal beliefs, even your most cherished convictions, many times during your life.

Neptune Conjunct Mars/Uranus
Your mind tends to wander and you have to beware of accidents caused by your absent-mindedness. Acting on spontaneous ideas, you could easily become involved in projects that are misrepresented or dishonest, leaving yourself open for others to question your intentions.

Neptune Conjunct Asc./MC
Because you can't seem to relate to your surrounding with ease, you hide your true nature and may pretend that you are different than you really are. You also should beware of deceitful people in your circle who may not have your best interests at heart.Pluto Opposition Venus/Jupiter Your desire for love is very strong and you are extremely popular. You have what it takes to fascinate many people and are likely to have a good measure of social power. Your generosity is great, and no one who comes to you for help will be turned away.Pluto Conjunct Neptune/N. Node There seems to be a negative energy around you that could undermine your association with other people. You should beware of ruthless people who may try to deceive you or try to cause problems for you in other ways.

Section 10: Generational Influences: Your Age Group

In this chapter we will discuss characteristics and traits of your generation. Of course, you may not share all of the characteristics of your generation, but you are greatly affected by the tone that is set by your generation.
The first topic is "The Subconscious and Emotional Drive of Your Age Group". In this section we will describe a deeply felt urge, even compulsion, of your age group. This deeply felt drive comes to the surface with great force and power, and consequently leaves in its wake considerable upheaval and change. The second topic is "The Ideals and Illusions of Your Age Group", that describes the dreams, fantasies, and spiritual aspirations of your age group. The third and last topic is "What is New and Different in Your Age Group", which describes areas in which your age group tends to be innovative, inventive, unusual, and also where it may be unstable and unreliable.
The characteristics described below may affect a group of people for anywhere from a few years to about 30 years. There are one or more different astrological factors described in each of the three sections below.

The Subconscious and Emotional Drive of Your Age Group
Pluto in Virgo:
You are part of a 15 year group of people that are driven by the need to find an ethical standard and a clear sense of what is right and what is wrong. There is a subconscious drive to straighten out all the world's evils and create a world of perfect order. There is a feeling of repulsion to anything ugly, dirty, or grotesque. Oddly enough, there is also often a fascination with these very things that are so distasteful, and often a feeling of hopelessness and despair about the world's condition.
These inner, emotional and conflicting qualities are reflected in the attitudes and life styles of your generation. Most people of your age group are conservative and ethical, and a small minority goes to the opposite extreme and relishes being strange or unusual in appearance, and sloppy or even grotesque in manners and appearance. There seems to be no middle ground for your generation. Usually, the rebellious type of behavior comes out during adolescence, and tends to subside thereafter, and your age group tends to be very conservative in later life.
Your age group is not very good at compromising and tends to have strong ideas about what is right and what is wrong. There is a strong feeling that you must extinguish evil in the world. Certainly, fostering good works is very commendable, but a categorical and simple-minded response to complex issues is not helpful. Your age group will undergo great transformations in attitudes regarding Good and Evil and will swing to great extremes. Your generation will also make great contributions in the areas of medicine and nutrition, ecology, and education.

Uranus Conjunct Pluto:
You were also born during a period that lasted approximately 5 years and is characterized by extreme restlessness and an impatient, dynamic attitude towards life. You are part of a group of people who can be explosive and even violent in their reactions to situations. You do not tolerate being restricted, and your age group rebels with force and anger against oppressive situations.

The Ideals and Illusions of Your Age GroupNeptune in Scorpio:
You are part of a 14 year group of people that have very intense psychic sensitivity and imagination. Your age group is very attracted to the strange, weird, and unusual. The sense of the macabre and bizarre is strong, and this is reflected in much of the music, art, and fashions of your age group. Novels and movies with mystery and chilling suspense are also popular with your age group. Emotional depression, drug use, and suicide are likely to be relatively high in your age group. There is also a deep mystical sense, and Eastern religions and meditation are very attractive to your age group.

Neptune Sextile Pluto:
The entire generation to which you belong has tremendous opportunities for spiritual rebirth and awakening. This will not be forced upon you or precipitated by unavoidable events, rather it comes from an inner yearning and a natural propensity to seek the depths.

What is New and Different in Your Age Group
Uranus in Virgo:
You are part of a 7 year group of people who employ their skills and creativity to bring about a great deal of practical reform in education, medical care, and other social services. Your innovations are not radical or unusual, but they are usually effective.
Your generation also has a curious mixture of both conservative, ethical people, and rebellious, disruptive people. There seems to be little middle ground for your age group, and you swing to one extreme or the other. The conservative people strive to reinstate strict moral standards, want to swiftly punish criminal behavior, and strive to highlight the importance of old-fashioned values in our lives, laws, and overall life style. On the other hand, the rebellious people of your generation are angry at the established way of doing things and act in a defiant, crude, and coarse manner.

all thanks to:
http://www.astrology.com/examples/new/110/bt.html#top

CONFUSED.

2009-08-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

I AM SERIOUSLY CONFUSED.

BUSY~

2009-08-11T20:04:00.005+08:00

the four days of break wasn't a break can!!! im sorry i wasnt able to post...
this is a summary of what i did during the past few days.

anyways, i just realise DORCAS HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME!!!
AND MR SHAH!! 15AUGUST!! OH MY GAWDDDDDDDDDDD.
dont know my birthday so common T.T but its ok nice to rmb ;DDD

a recount of my past few days experiences..

friday- sch ended at 11.30 -.- met up with grace at compass and went to long john. met up with clement and zhenyong, went action city(hahahahaha.. inside joke) then nigel at skcc and when back to compass to meet eveline and wenbin. then meet nixon and weijie and clement and zhenyong left and waited for christina, menghao and sylvia to come from vivo and went to ncps the opposite bball court as usual to play... alot things happen in between la.. but am too lazy to mention.. anyway, the guys played first then the girls chatted. get to catch up with one another.. then the other 3, chris meng and syl went to play while me and grace sat thr to cheer for them. nigel was super pissed off at us, or particually at me cause i only clap when the girls got in. hahahahas... hmm, then they had a break and i think steffi came, but i left cause have to meet my parents where my dad was flying his kite.. 0.o hahas... came back at 7pm, ate and bath.. blahblah.. then 8pm slept. early hor...

saturday- early morning woke up to meet my aunt then she went to fetch my godma and we went pasir ris the market to buy some stuff and eat, then go sheng shiong to buy some more stuff then went my grandma house, watched a super nice tv programme called dang gou ai shang mao. super touching!! then wait for my godma cok laska finish, ate lunch, went out to take my specs, which i am super uncomfortable in now.. and erm when to my si ma lu, buy some MORE stuff.. hahas.. sat is basically a shopping day for my family.. LOL. hm, den when to pray cause the next day was like some god's birthday.. then wanted to go my auntie house but she not in, so when back home. took a 30min nap, then went downstairs to have our dinner. until 9 i reach home, bath and watch bof til 11, and slept.

sunday- woke up at 7am. my aunt drove me my mom and sis to macpherson road to eat some prawn noodle. nice meh? ok nia.. LOL then met my godparents, and cousin then go snow city. i declare SNOW CITY IS SUPER NOT FUN. the place is small and very boring. the snow is made up of sand and there is only 1 thing interesting. the snow-tubing. =.= took lots of photos cause the camera man had nth to do. LOLs and we had alot to choose. in the end we chose 7 photos, causeing $19 each =.= then we went to the science centre, since the ticket is combined from the snow city... then we went around for like 30mins, then leticia and my sis went to the water world. hello! im wearing long jeans plus long sleeve.. =.= make me so damn hot la =.= anyways, i sat there and got a headache plus im sleepy!! still, we walked to the omni theatre and spent $6 to get me and leticia into a "airplane" which is a movie ride. looks horifying on the outside but inside was quite fun. it was not 3d but it jerks. no seatbelt, so have to hold on to the railings very tightly. nice experience overall. went home at 6pm slacked and sleeped cause i was feeling super terrible.. my godma burnt a hole in her pocket tho. the tickets were lyk $100++ den the photos were $70 and the ride $6 -.- super ex. had a fun day tho. in the night ate porridge and watched the parade.. said the plege with my sis at 8.22. so fun.. LOLs. she damn cute. we the citizens of singapore.. she say we.. singapore! hahas...

my sis was so cold that she was shivering when in the -8.2degrees celcius room.

the ice bar was very cool! seriously made of ice.

snow-tubing. went twice. once with leticia and my godpa, the other with leticia only.
fun but butt super freezing. have to wait quite some time before it gains heat again =.= lols..

family potrait! ;D

monday- chiong hw, went out to see my auntie.. her 2nd baby 1st month.. then went out to eat dinner at some place where the western food was nice and looks very posh tho its in a hawker centre. its opposite paya lebar methodists primary if im not wrong. then cam whored with my sis... damn funny.. then went NTUC buy some things and finally go cake shop buy cake for myself -.- LOLs erm order la. my fav lor, chocolate lots lots.. every year same.. hahas...

sis posing for me to take photo.. hahas

aren't she cute!! ;)

so swet right! envy? hahas..

bleh... who call you don't have such a pretty sis like me.. hahas

O.o funny face. don't know what are we doing.. hahas...

sis, acting emo. next tyme she really could be an actor mans.. hahas..

finally, a almost perfect one, that is if memei turn over.. but she refuses.. =.=

today- school.. quite sian... just that mr tee didnt come today.. had 2 periods of fun? ok la... 1 period was boring den i had the idea of pictionary and played with wanling jieyi shehwa pamela and jodi.. had some fun ;) stayed back til 6 to do maths with shehwa.. must thank kok ting and jialin for coming in time to help :)

tried to jio people out to celebrate this sun but to no avail. suan le ba.. it will juts be a meaningless evening for me...

now, have to go.. have been here quite long.. ttfn. byex ;)

2009-08-06T20:30:00.002+08:00

tmr sch ends at 10.30am

maybe gonna meet 6affinitians.. duno how many.

many only 5.

wanted to go somewhere with ______ but she seemes to have sth on.

don't wish to bother _____ cause..... nvm

today was like ok lorhs...

everythings cancelled. why not cancel in the 1st place?

after sch when 3a, at 1st felt damn extra. seriously...

i mean i feel that _________ __________ gone, then am super sian diao but.. overall ok la.

had fun playing the game, competeing with zongsheng and koking. hahas.

3a is seriously different..

hmm, then peiyi, jialin and shuxian went cp and i left for home.

on the bus, on the way home, i tried to figure out what was wrong with me today.

maybe i had too many experience of being a "3rd party" thats why i left

1 person suffering is so much better then 3 issint it?

it seriously hurts. i feel guilty, at the same time sad.

people see me thought i crazy but that doesnt matter.

i am already dead.

though i always say that, i dont think so.

i am still going through something i went through two years ago.

why must you break your promise?

you have changed

into a totally different person.

now you only talk to me about _____ and nth else

why must you raise my hopes high and yet dash it?

who helped me to overcome my past and then dash it?

YOU. yes YOU.

tell me why. i beg you. tell me.

2009-08-05T17:37:00.002+08:00

slacking again... hahas...

today, was a much pretty fine day.

LOL

nothing much...

still no motivation. maybe chiong-ing hw after dinner.. slack for now 1st heh heh ;D

2009-08-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

wanling: thanks... for??
vivian: hahas. they pro-er. seriously. hmm when did you didn't see me?

anyways, yes people. i admit. im sick.
have been coughing through all the lessons today. so sorry if i have brought the flu bug to class.. but i don't think its me only.. hahas.. quite a few got it too.. its spreading fast..
take care of yourselves k!
haven recover since last mon. haix.
have lost the determination on my work how???
someone motivate me mans...
im motivated to run.. hahas... i promise to run after my foot recovers ;)
good to have aim but don't know will realise anot.. hahas.

time flies don't you think so?
its august! this fri is celebrating national day.. no lessons! wheeeee!
but next fri test liao.. OMGGGGGGG larhs.. haix..

haven been managing my time well. slacking ALOT.
like now lorh... don't know why...
i have alot to say
but nothing to type.
i guess, keeping to myself is still my type..

tired

2009-07-30T20:17:00.002+08:00

yesterday, when esplanade with lihui, jieyi, jerilene, yeetzen, claris, amanda, beatrice to watch NYGH chorale concert. 3 consecutive gold-with-honours really is up to the standard de lorhs. their sound was super nice. 1h with 3 short breaks only. they sang beautifully. the change of note was almost perfect. high notes werent split, and alot alot alot more good things. they encore-d twice themselevs, seems funny but its worth the wait for it to end the $$ spent was worthwhile. throughout the whole hour me lihui jieyi amanda was leaning forward to watch their performance while the others sat back to relax. we listened so attentively that we felt pain in our neck.. hahas... but very worthwhile. the lighting was nice, the piece was beautiful, their sound was marvellous, so it was really awesome. had a fun tyme cam-whoreing with jieyi and lihui too. too bad the lighting was quite bad and our cameras werent really good :( so some ics were blur or dark T.T but nvm la.. had a great time overall :) saw a bof photo book in raffles city.. or issit city link? guess how much it cost? 50 bucks man!! heart broken T.T so ex... anyways, wanted to say that my mom got my hint!!! omg im so happy. should have posted this long ago.. LOL hmm, my dad bought it in the end but it was my mom who initiated. OMG im sooooo HAPPY ;D

back to today~

i realise i name my post tired before. hahas. but this time its physically and mentally.

physically because, 2 days of resting really turned me into quite a slug.. now that i have to wake up before the moon sets is so saddening.. T.T last 2 days i wake up when the sun shines at my butt.. hahas! kidding la. but it was around 9 am.. now... T.T 5.45 have to climb up bed.. dont know when then can sleep until so late again lorh. weekends is also a no-no for me :(

well, mentally because im..

tired with all the hw piled up.

tired with all the changes.

it seems different after the june holidays.

everything.

looks different, smells, ok, maybe not so, but feels different.

anyways, cant talk more... i need to rush my hw.. haix.. when will there evr be a day without homework? T.T ttfn..

2009-07-28T10:39:00.008+08:00

this few days was hectic!!!

wondering why im posting at this time? well, i tio 3 days mc...

so until thurs then i'll go back sch. don't know good or bad.
good that finally i can take some rest, but bad that i have hw that i don't know how to do, need trouble liyun help me take hw, and i'll not catch up with the class in time. my results so bad liao.. i don't know what can i do... haix..

anyways, just a recount on what happened these few days.
seriously, i was so damn occupied that i was sick..
hmm, lemme start from sat..

celebrating my maternal grandparents and my sisters birthday.

we had bbq satay, chicken wing, green bean soup, spagetti, mee rombus, bee hoon, pizza, cake.

alot right? my family from morning keep eating til the night... full like siao.

i think i gain 10kg le lorh. hahas.

wearing the dresses that my godma bought for them..

my father bbq-ing...

my grandauntie and her family came...

i invited liyun here and we made pizza for dinner...

a significant time to us.. hahas ;D

the aroma, which made everyone saliavate.. LOL

time to cut the cake for my maternal grandparents! they have the same birthday...
so coincidence right.. hahas...

liyun was so chio that day! ;D
and she was so popular among the kids...
well, leticia and my sis loved her... hahas...

liyun and my sis... both have BIG eyes.. but my sis squit here so cant see :(

we look super weird.. took 3 shots but all failed... this was the best already T.T still not nice... :(

leticia with my sis...

my sis with all her presents.. almost all was bought from my aunt la.. my sister so fortunate right? hahas ;)

see that dress on the floor? must thank liyun's mom for buying her that. and the bear between the pooh and piglet? thats from liyun. THANKS ALOT YUN!!! ;D

that butterfly dress.. lol..

then on sun, i went to a buffet restaurant @ united square, where we can eat whatever we like for $40 in 5h... can you believe it? i mean we can eat lobsters, oysters, ice-cream, abalone, buddha jump over the wall................. and its seriously true ok! show you some pictures...

i steal de. cause actually cant take de... thats all i can provide...

grand right?!

my father eating the oyster. i tried one. its so.... mushy.. LOL and i don't dare take another.. hahas

i don't know what is this called. but i know its very ex and taste like lobster. but its not.

chocolate fondue!! is this how you spell it? OMG its DELICIOUS!!!

the TUBE JUICE which leticia recommended to me.. its normale juice, just that its in a tube and looks super cute!! this was orange... but its very dangerous to handle...

the 1st plate of food i took and my aunt say so litte? take more later.. LOL

it was the only time i had the interest to take photos.. after that i went to eat and eat and... ya...

the buddlha jump over the wall.... served when i reached... super nice!!

my family... while waiting for my grandma to take photo... hahas..

there. this photo lorh. they were waiting cause my grandma love to take photos. hahas...

the water fall there very nice ;)

my sis with her new bought goofy. @ guardian. for $24.90. i bought a winnie the pooh too. THANKS DADDY ;D

mon.. went sch super sick then went dental, then went buy food, came home, eat, bath, go see doctor, took 3 day mc, come home, slack and sleep without knowing.. LOLs and today woke up do hw... now going to eat before continueing the english homework.. today got geo test, i never take. all the best crescendo!

hahas... k its time for my lunch now. im hungry xD talk again later.. byex..

investiture

2009-07-24T23:37:00.005+08:00

today was a big blow to me... saying farewell to seniors, mrs sim

and mr shah....

thank all of you who had taught me. ur thoughts are deeply appreaciated!

so finally, it was over... a huge load off my mind...
my whole body was aching after i came home...
and i realise i can sleep everywhere.

sigh. maybe im a perfectionist... it didn't turn out to be expected

so it didn't turn out to be great.
i even acted so unglam by crying during the speech to mrs sim.. LOL :(
i was suppressing my feelings from the video to the seniors,

so.. in the end, cried out during the speech :( sorry mrs sim...
anyways, hope everyone who went enjoyed their time..

though some of the time was a little cold... and sec 1s might feel left out,

really really am very sorry. will take notice next time...

its late.. and i have a long day to go tomorrow.

shall explain some time later.. nitex :)

p.s. thanks all who tagged ;D

2009-07-21T21:44:00.001+08:00

MY GAWD!!!
its confirmed!!!
i am booked on 4 to 13 december..
going to a snow city with my godparents and their family..
though i know them, but... not very well...
besides... 10 DAYS.. OMG. 10 DAYS...
i cant believe my ears!!!
how am i going to sleep tomight?
ARGGGHHHHH....xD

2009-07-20T20:47:00.003+08:00

how i wish there is a happy ending in everything in life~~

quick post here...

vivian: i did.. but when i was on, u were off ><>

lihui: no probs. haha.. ya lorh.. over liao.. jayous fer the LC this wed ba ;D

jingsi: no need la ;D i link myself de ma.. u don't mind jiu hao ;D

wanling: OMG OMG OMG... YOU REALLY FOUND HIS OFFICIAL BLOG!! his pics and all very nice!! esp videos.. kekes... but its all in korean T.T but thanks fer the tag to let me know ya.. :)

pamela: re-linked le :DD

oh yes!! we finished our maths project!! and now i need to chiong my hw.. sigh...
tmr choir meeting de things i haven prepare too :( haix... wed got chi O lvl LC, thurs got essay test (i confirm flunk mans...) and fri maths test (issit amaths or emaths? i guess e, cos a just over)

typing v fast cause i need to chiong as you can see... really not much time left, so just cut it short... OMG I BOUGHT AUGUST TEENAGE MAG!!! its the 1st mag i bought.. LOLs cause i always thought it was a waste of $ but i see liao, very happy, hahas... no regrets at all... after all, its august! which is nearing my birthday!! hahas... but whoever sees this, please... i don't want presents la... i just want a card made by u people.. even if its in ugly handwriting, as long i can read can le ;D its the thought that counts. really.
but i really hope that my mom can buy sth for me... she haven't bought me anything since my sis was born.. all she do was to treat me eat pizza hut .. no good de lorh... i want a bear bear... mentioned to her liao.. when i sleep myself i want a big teddy bear, but i don't think she get my hint.. super sad de can... mom don't understand me... i have $ myself now.. and i really hope to buy one.. but the feeling, will not be as sentimental le... so i shall wait ba...
because since my sis was born, i didn't get to hug her truely, cause my sis will get jealous.. HAHA.. heys its true.. so i always wanted a soft teddy bear to sleep with me... but... nevermind... it is just not the same when it is not bought from her :(

woah siao 9 liao.. i 1 hw oso haven do.. kk gtg.. byex...

am i in a dream?

2009-07-19T10:15:00.004+08:00

OH MY GAWD.
i can't believe it man!!!

i was told that i could go on a trip with my godparents to KOREA in DECEMBER for AT LEAST 7 DAYS!!! where it is WINTER!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

i can't believe it til now..

kkae, it went like this...

i was taking an afternoon nap at my grandparents house yesterday then i woke up to go to the toilet. when i came out my aunt was like ur mama eng (my godma) want bring you to korea you want go anot? i blur blur.. then just say go lorh.. and i went back to sleep. when i really woke up, i thought it was a dream and didn't think much of it. then my godma went for dinner and my aunt drove me and my mom home. then in her van, she start talking about korea stuff, telling me snow is nice but very dirty, then what summer got more clothes buy, i was like thinking ehhh isn't it somehow like my dream? then i was like need how much $$ go there? she say, don't need la. i told ur godma liao. if need $ u wouldn't go de.. then i was like huh? then she say, my godpa and brother tio 4D quite alot, want bring my cousin and my godparents go korea, then my godma ask if i want go... in my heart i was like AHHHH!!! but of course didn't show out la.. then she suddenly say, i think 1 week need like $1000+ then i was like HUH? i thought 4 days at most?? she was like no la! i think around 7 days... my heart also faint mans...

then my aunt tell me you better keep your december holidays free.. in my heart i was like definitely la!!! haha... snow leh!! i wanted to see them la!! korea leh!! if got BOF stuff plus its cheap, i'll buy alot alot de lorh.. hahahahahahahaha.... oh n don't worry, i'll remember to bring some souvenirs home for my friends ;D haha.. think so far when its not confirmed... LOL..

my aunt still say prepare for it arh.. then my mom splash cold water say, must ask her work hard for her exams 1st arh... walau... spoil the whole beautiful scene... but i guess, i'll wok hard from no on.. xD with a super nice goal in front of me.. hahas... [anyone knows whats the exchange rate?? LOL]

ok. so now, im gonna chiong all my hw liaos...

and i'll try to revise everyday, instead of staying back in school or cp to slack xD don't know is its possible, but i guess, when theres a will, theres a way.. so ttfn ;D

i shalln't be bothered liao.
if it happens, its fate. i don't care if i would be blamed.

if i am, iam. leave it to destiny to decide ba.

besides,

i just knew our friendship was over. ur smile told me so...

2009-07-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

Thanks vivian ;)

i think i need some glue though.. hahas...

just a quick post..

today, everything SEEMED better..

but i think i flunk my oral, so well, its good not to think about the past anymore.

but all these tests and homework are really making me think back when we complained so much homework in primary schools.

oh gawd. that was like.. peanuts! hahas...

missing 6a lehs...

saw mdm teng today at bus stop. OMG i almost could not recognise her can!!

if she never call me, i would not notice its her lorh! she's wearing that brown shirt..

i think i saw her wearing when i was p6.. oops... hahas... but can say she slimmed down alot la...

i guess is cause stress ba..

that moment i really wish i can go back ncps.. my good old memories...

i'll change my ways man.. all my ba dao ways... hahas...

and i miss going out with friends..

no matter to shop, play bball, idle, wadeva, i miss you guys in home clothes.. xD

everytime go school see you wear uniform ma... hahas...

i know this is a year where we need chiong study, and next year chiong revise.. but..

all work but no play makes Jack a dull boy doesn't it?

so we DEFINITELY need to unwind ourselves sometime..

and i want to train my stamina!! after not pe-ing for 2 months, i feel like a handicapped >.<

i want to arrange outings again..

i want to play bball with 6a and 2a peeps again..

i want. i want. i want.

anyways, i gotta go. there is a chemistry test tomorrow and though i think i'll flunk it, i still need to revise right... and sommore got physics TYS haven do.. gotta go.. byex..

what am i thinking?

2009-07-15T20:10:00.002+08:00

海的思念绵延不绝

终于和天在地平线交会

爱如果走得够远

应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶

美丽的飞盘旋然后不见

但我相信你给我的誓言

就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑

一路上寻找我遗失的美好

不小心当泪滑过嘴角

就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠

只一心寻找我遗失的美好

有的人说不清哪里好

但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老

虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

...

好心没好报, 这句话不知以流传多久了.. 我一直都不信.

直到今天我发现这句话是有理由的.

我不知道当初为什么会帮了他那么多忙, 最终害到的..确是自己.

还有所谓的再见也不是朋友, 今天也领悟到了.

睁着眼睛说瞎话, 你真行. 看来我又能用上多一句俗语: 知人知面不知心.

算了我早以习惯被人利用. 多一次只显得我自己的愚蠢.

太容易相信别人真的不好.

...

最近也发生了一些我想象不道的事, 让我十分苦恼.

昨晚已睡不着我不知今晚会如何.

而且明天还有两个考试..我真的不知该如何应付...

不知我现在该做些什么..

我真的真的不想再想了.

haix, 我该去做功课, 温习了..

事情也只能走一步算一步了.

希望真的能想俗话所说的: 船到桥头自然直吧...

anyways, do NOT, i repeat, DO NOT ASSUME what you might be thinking to what i am thinking. ttfn.

2009-07-10T16:55:00.002+08:00

im feeling awkward.
and confused.
oh gawd. what kinda feeling is that?
nth much to say...

btw, come support my friends blogshop ;D
http://www.in2glam.blogspot.com/

i'm back.

2009-07-06T16:34:00.002+08:00

people who really care about me, don't worry about my previous post. im alright now.

maybe im being bhb, because, there might be nobody who cares, but well...

anyways, just let it be...

i realise.. time really do fly...

i read some of my posts last time..

from the day i reformatted my blog.

the time i laughed like crazy, the time i cry like crazy.

OMG unknowingly, so many things have passed.

we should really cherish time. mostimportantly, those who are around us.

no matter of their appearance and character. this is what i have learnt for the past 2 years.

i saw my p6 stuff... sec 1 stuff.. sec 2 stuff..

now sec 3.. its so unbelievable. maybe having a blog is a good thing after all..

other than letting you keep in contact with your long lost never say hi friend, it can keep memories. even those photos that you might have deleted or what, but when you post, the photo will stay there like, until you delete it. im so missing my primary sch fwens.

especially the times we're playing bball. i cant now. and i guess, i need quite some time to recover T.T but when i think back? it gives me super nice memories.

memories are good. it would make you smile. or maybe cry. but i suppose they are tears of joy.. because normally we will forget the unhappy stuffs. i still rmb that time when i posted for 2 hours on what im missing. p6. sec 1 blah blah. i can tell you. im still missing those carefree times. up til this stage, we will find ourselves more and more stressed. o lvl orals are coming. mines' scheduled on 16 july.

as i believe, the only constant in this world is change.

things change. situations change.

people change too.

i can definitely say i changed. from a super optimistic person to a super pessimistic. haha. primary school was crazy. secondary was bleh~ ok la. i do have fun times but there is still times where i m being bothered. by stuffs, like secrets =x LOL can't say la.. and all i can say is, our thinking changed. so everyone matured, changed.. blah blah. i believe everyone will change. everyone will age. everyone will mature. either earlier or later. although it does matters, i hope to put it at the deep end of my heart.. so that it would not affect me in my life.

im changing once again. to be a happier person.

to be able to accept critisicm and move forward to become a better a person.

nobody is perfect. i just wish to be a person without hatred.

it will take time for me to change and adapt.

but, nothing is impossible, as long as you have the will to do it.

so to those people who are still being pessimistic or holding onto sth, my advice is..

let go.

im not pin-pointing anyone or whoever or what.

just trying to be inspirational abit.

i hope you would not regret that because you were holding onto sth and you miss out the happenings that are going on. its not worthwhile. and you will regret it in the future. yes i know im only 15 this year and i sound super mature, but you have to know that i've been through alot. maybe when you know me well then you will know.. so heed my advice. its time for you to learn...

2009-07-06T15:00:00.002+08:00

i saw sth that i should not see..... again.

is it me? or is it her? who are you referring to?

tell me an answer will you? at least i can comfort myself.

without an answer.. i don't even know what could i do to not put that into my mind..

how i wish i had never explored.

because it seriously dampened my mood. like the weather now...

raining so heavy. making me feel so cold.

cold in the outside and also in the inside.

i am sick of hiding the facts.

but who can i tell?

i mean even if i tell, the person might not understand me..

plus i can't have a person to follow me 24 hours round. i must learn.

learn to adapt.

learn to learn.

learn to let things go and close one eye.

don't belittle me.

i will.

eventually.

i shall listen to her advice....

to accept thr truth. and not to hide.

so that i would become a greater person.

greater not as in noble. but to be a greater person means to forgive and forget,

so my life would be easier and not full of hatred.

so long...

2009-07-05T21:49:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YANZHAN!!!
SORRY FOR THE LATE WISHING. MAY ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE ;D

today, i shall be super duper random.
seriously, i don't why, im feeling so random today.
changed my blogskin, 2a blogskin and 3c blogskin..
sick of them.. LOL..
hmm lemme be random to rewind on the things that i've been last month...
lets start from two days ago...
heh heh. me jialin and liyun went compass to shop shop and tok tok.
pouring out stuff as usual. being with them, i feel like im with my family. totally can just lt out my feelings... so easy and free. not like i have to keep this and that from them.. super love them can!! hahas... being mushy.. LOL... hmm then we went pass sembawang and i saw this...

so damn cool la!! i went comics connection and sorted out the 2R cards with liyun for them. so good right... LOL erm, basically, looking through and see got BOF de anot... and erm have!!! but very little and not nice >.<>
if got their poster, OMG i'll grab it man!!!
i want to go junction 8 nex sat.. get their poster and ezlink sticker... so cool!
2.30pm. i bet the whole of junction 8 will be filled up by 12noon... since they super red. LOL
don't think my mom will allow me go crowded places cause my legg... T.T how i wish i could be more be careful then la...
then dun need take this stupid xray which shows the crack of my bone... T.T

dun think can see from here... anyways, that time i went kite-flying with my dad but lao tian bu zuo mei...

no wind >.< but most importantly, i saw a rainbow!! its very light but still, very nice.

i always feel that seeing a rainbow represents that im lucky. because we don't often get to see rainbows... ;D

my sister had lots of fun too. cause she was running around like a mad kid since the space so big.. and she sweat like.. she just came out of a bath.. haha...

theres my dad, trying to fix the eagle. but when he fixed it, the wind died down and everyone stopped flying kite. so sway.

then its 6.30pm, time to go home and eat dinner so didnt even get to see our kite fly high T.T but its ok.. life has ups and downs. that day was we sway... shall try again next time..

hey the weather now is super cooling la.. may tomorrow be a better day ;D

but i have to do hw :(

ok this post is super random.. anyways, i gtg. its 10pm. ttfn :)

hellos.

2009-07-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

thanks for tagging denise ;D

everything was normally today.
school and blah blah blah
and im having lots of hw to do.
lucky teachers are quite kind..
maybe can negotiate? O.O hahas.. hope so.
anyways, i gotta go.. chiong hw.. ttfn ;D

`2nd JULY 2009

today...

2009-07-01T19:44:00.006+08:00

replies to tags:

amandaL : thanks.
wanting : i am feeling better :) thanks fer ur concern.
vivian : thanks ;D hahahahahas... nobody's perfect. anyways, that post is very stressful... hmm, thanks fer ur jiayous. i'll post on tdae, so read below ba ;D

ok, so today was quite good, except the fact that we didn't really sang well >.< choir.. must jiayous leh. 19 still got 1 more performance.. don't screw it up le.. jiayous ;D
hmm, early morning, we are being called out by ms yong to inform all choir members to go music room after their temperature taking. then i had to walk to first floor then rush up to third floor, sweating like mad =.= then went to music room.. blah blah.. went the orchid country club. OMG its so grand la. my tian. then went to practice, still quite ok. BUT don't know why, when it comes to performing, we sucked. i admit, altos were mainly at fault. we were off tune, we were soft. haix. then had lunch, and we took photos lyk crazy. here are some of them..

this was when we had to leave... the last glimpse... T.T they were so very cute!!!
last look of the club before we leave...

group photo!

jing xing!! she damn pretty!!! im so sad she don't want to take photo with me so i sneak peek-ed her :(((

this photo was taken cos this guy came to ask us if we wanted to take photo with hem damn LOL. he said we sangbeautifully and made his day when we were off tune.. haha! a v nice guy indeed. told lies to make us happy! hahas.. oh another creepy thing is that i realise the 3 of us look very very VERY alike. super scary. hahas!

big group photo!! shuwei and jieyi with the two cuties ;D

3 with 3 hahas... that guy right to the left was last last time my partner name ian. he very guai de budden duno why today he damn crazy.. damn high LOL..

bu kui shi da jiu dian. their toilets was very posh and we took some pictures there too ;DD

this is when international dance was rehearsing..

we were watching them perform. cheeky eugenia even did a twist. LOL

oh and this car... very nice right? like wedding de liddat.. its right outside the toilet and erm. i managed to take a quick photo, tho abit blur :(

after that had committee meeting.. 1st tyme as p lead committee meeting. must say, abit scared but u all so nice! co-operated well and we did well!! ;D thanks so much!

think im gona b sick cos i keep going in and outta air-con.. :( hope i dun get a flu...

today was all about choir, skipped lessons whole day for choir.. abit happy but abit sad. happy cause we get to see those kids again. sad because we won't see them anymore.. and skipped so much notes now need catch up haix.. k la.. gtg byex..

thanks.

2009-06-30T19:18:00.004+08:00

no problems vivian! ;D

well, i want to thank all who had me wish me well for my new post.
(thanks eugenia for tagging ;D)
thanks all who voted for me and trusted me.
i believe that we will improve with a heart of perserverance. all together as a team.
yes, its a brand new challenge for me..
well, since its open(and somehow spread to alot of people), i shalln't hide away from it anymore.
it might be a tough. it might be difficult.
so i wish all of you will help me along. guide me.
i'm really new at this, so show me the ropes.
don't be afraid to point out my mistakes.
and please don't avoid telling me anything just because of my post.
i understand that some of you might not really like me, but i just hope that we can co-operate.
i will work hard to fufill my duty and of course, i hope to strive for greater heights.
lets work together alrights?
as always, one for all, all for one. ;D

2009-06-28T13:59:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VIVIAN! YOU ARE 13! ;D

I'm sorry i didn't get you a present yet. I'll buy it some time later when i go shop..

cause my leg haven really recover yet.. anyways, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! once again..

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE! ;D

play well in your viola,

get good grades,

...

homework time! toodles........

hmm.. but very sianx.. dun feel lyk doing hw xP

anyways, time will never turn back

18 more hours to doom..

2009-06-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

is everyone chionging hw? hahas. im taking a break. just had my lunch.
hmm... thinking.. m afraid...
i do not know what will happen tomorrow.
i hope everything will be fine.
it was fine on friday. hope tomorrow would not be a disaster.
tuesday and wednesday too.
ahh... for the whole week la!
im worrying. yes indeed.

worrying for - homework!!!!!
worrying for - tuesday
worrying for - wednesday
worrying for - friday
worrying for - alot of things..

god. wherever u are. pls help me. to go through this week without fail.
lemme survive. i cant thank you enough.

gawd. i miss you..

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2009-06-25T09:12:00.002+08:00

kkae, i guess i flunk my oral.. haix.. stumbled alot. braces got different eh! :(
anyways, yesterday, wanling and jialin came my house.
talk alot from the trip from school to home. shalln't say topic..
then on the bus, wanling was talking to her senior, or in a way, me and jialin kinda neglected wanling. (SORRY WANLING!) me and jialin was so random to talk about dress code -.- haha!
but we had 1 conclusion. we are kinda of a same type LOL...
when we came home, we started to slack, although we said to do homework, but in the end NEVER lorh.. hahas... its ok la. have fun jiu hao.
hmm, then we ate quite something.. potato chips, giant polky(is that how you spell it?)
then switch switch switch channel, saw hotshot. they were crazy lurh. haha
but somehow me and jialin can talk about BOF. haha! k la, she not that crazy but also kena influenced liao haha! then they wanted to play catching with my sis. hello... you 2 track de... how in the world cqan she catch you? LOL in the end they played hide-and-seek, when my sis was taking so many photos.. damn unglam de. but they never gimme permission put here so i cant put.. see i so guai.. k la kiddin was bhb-ing hahas.. and something embarassing happen.. whoops... haha. my fault. nvm. shalln't say more or not someone will kill me. i never say who hor! turn channel see the yu le bai fen bai got BOF anot, but never tun there so we never see any. then we watch bao lian deng. LAST EP!! wakaka.. so touching... then they build a house with sorta some don'tknow what with my sis... then they went home.
they had a super crazy time playing hide-and-seek with my sis la... and of course, my sis was super damn happy cause everytime people come my house is do project, etc, won't play with her. can imagine how happy is she lorh.

later which is like 10min more, wanling jieyi liyun coming my house do chi project. its so damn sian la. very boring.. anyways, liyun just reached and i gtg.. so ttfn :)

THANK GOD..

2009-06-23T16:09:00.007+08:00

OMG! thank god!!!

went out to eat lunch den see doctor, he told me i fracture my bone, ask me go xray
go xray, went four horse road (direct translation from chinese) buy soup stuff
went back to the doctor.
wait wait wait
doctor say : xiao mei mei, come.
me say : orh
doctor say : (in chinese) you see this crack here, yes indeed you have a crack in your bone
me thinking : oh freak! how? need cast? huh? how? how? how? *flusters*
doctor say: (in chinese) but then, i don't know why your bone is still intact together.
(walking back to sit)
mom say : (in chinese) then need put plaster?
doctor say : (in chinese) don't need. but you must monitor your foot for 8 weeks.
me say : (in chinese) then i need a letter to skip PE.
doctor say: (in chinese) i will confirm give you. i will also give you medication to put on your foot. with two pills to eat. but the medication very strong so i give you one more pill to protect your stomach. must eat full then can eat ok. you don't eat already one hour later then eat the medication hor. understand anot? must eat full already immediately eat hor. then the swollen part, you can cook one egg, boiled egg can last 3 days la hor, cook already hot hot then rou rou lor ok. eh, you don't jump, don't tip-toe, don't squat, don't wear heels hor. understand anot? if you hurt yourself again, i can't help you har, girl. hurt yourself one more time, you need go operation put a screw in between your bone le. ok? i repeat arh, you don't jump, don't tip-toe, don't squat, don't wear heels hor. understand anot? don't play play hor.
me - nodding head all the way...

oh yes oh yes... thank god!!!
but... i cant perform on the 1/7 le T.T haix........

random quizzes... its really random.. but cause im in quite a good mood, so i decided to post them up ;D

You Are 24% Emo

You're definitely not emo, but you do understand emo people a little. You are introspective, but not to the point of driving yourself crazy.

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing.
You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.

And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile.
You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.

You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid.
Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else

You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly

Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

You Are a Little Negative...

You can be negative from time to time, but you rarely go overboard.

You have a realistic view of the world, and most people appreciate your honest insights.

Like everyone else, you have your darker moods.

But when you're feeling super negative, you keep your feelings to yourself.

You Are Very Approachable

You can talk to anyone, and it shows. People are eager to start conversations with you.

You are open and friendly. You are willing to connect with almost anyone.

While it's great to be approachable, there is such a thing as too approachable.

Eventually someone will try to take advantage of you. Don't be afraid to say no or end an awkward conversation.

You Are Peaceful

You are feeling very serene and centered. You're content with your life.

You have a clear head and a peaceful spirit. You are relaxed enough to appreciate what you have.

You are able to let go of your fears. You are trusting and generous toward others.

You live a quiet, mellow life. It may not be dramatic, but it's very fulfilling.

You Are Wild and Outrageous

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Your EQ is 133

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.

You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.

But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

You Are The Moon

You represent the unconscious side of life, what happens in dreams.

You are capable of great genius - but also of great madness.

Emotions tend to be primal for you, both your fears and your fantasies.

Your intuition is always right, listening to it is the difficult part.

Your fortune:

You are about to embark on a very important journey - and a very difficult one.

Some of your deepest dreams will be realized, as well as some of your deepest nightmares.

Follow your creativity and visions; stay away from your weaknesses.

You are taking a voyage to the center of yourself, and you may be pleasantly surprised by what you discover.

You Are Like a Dog

You are a natural best friend. You are very loyal and faithful.

In your eyes, your friends can do no wrong. You will stick with them no matter what.

You have a protective streak, and you can be downright nasty if you're being threatened.

More than anything else, you are playful and laid back. You truly live in the moment.

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average

Your General Knowledge is Average

You Are 50% Hyper

You have a high amount of energy, but you're not manic about it.

You live a busy, full, and productive life.

You enjoy all sorts of activities, and you approach most tasks with enthusiasm.

You are also naturally social. You have plenty of time and resources to devote to friends.

While you are quite hyper, you do understand the importance of rest.

It's difficult to get yourself to slow down, but when you do, you enjoy it.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.

You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward.

Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.

All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

You Are 64% Interesting

You are a fairly interesting person. Many people find you to be intriguing.

You have a dynamic, adventurous life... a life that others envy.

You are genuinely interested in and open to the world.

You love making new friends, and you're always up for an unusual experience.

Like everyone else, you can get a bit boring from time to time. That's normal.

But unlike everyone else, you can pull yourself out of a rut. You don't stay boring for long.

What Your Back to School Personality Says About You

You are laid back and fairly dispassionate. Traditional concepts of success are not important to you.

You are most likely to succeed if you are working with other talented people. You thrive on a team.

Your greatest skill is organization. You are good at laying out a plan and making sure it gets followed.

Your biggest stumbling block in life is learning how to break out on your own. You still listen to authority figures too much.

The number one thing you're thankful for is your friends and family.

its up to u to decide if these are true :)

23/7/09

2009-06-23T09:33:00.004+08:00

oh gawd.
wish me luck.
my homework issnt done,
although school might be closed for one more week, which i don't think its gonna be cause...

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm states that...
Schools to re-open as scheduled despite H1N1 situation
Posted : 22 Jun 2009 1823 hrs
Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on.

im so seriously dead. haix.
and.
m gonna see a western doctor liao.
and maybe taking xray later T.T i fear for the results..

2009-06-21T16:41:00.003+08:00

thanks to all who tagged!

to vivian: am recovering. today my leg is much much much more better ;D thanks fer ur concern
to yeehang: ya. it IS serious :( but i am better larhs.. by alot! thanks fer ur concern ;D
to izza: hey if you don't see it, i'll bash you! xD put extra big, bold and purple, so obvious.. hahas..
to shuwei: haha. yeahs. LOL

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!

i feel so bad for not doing my dad's present now.. anyways.. he is working.. so giving him belated.. and i don't think i can rush out by tomorrow either.. so.. maybe, i'll keep that present until... who knows? hahas.. i so bad right? last year and this year give present to my mom never give to my dad.. :( sigh.. no time go out buy ma.. my ankle liddat...

had ccm last fri.. went vivo. u people must think that im crazy. ya i am. hahas. my mom forbid me go i still go. cause i lied that im staying in cp.. whoops... anyways, bought alot of things and when home, while eugenia and shuwei went to watch movie.. then amanda got her mother ferry her, then i walk to mrt, slept all the way to punggol mrt station and took lrt home. i saw _____ with someone leh.. hahas... mysterious person.. i don't wanna say.. later i offend people..

that day was bad la.. sorry but i really felt being _______.

a review on my injury.. YAY IM MUCH BETTER!! ;D
im so afraid la. my mom says if i don't recover by wednesday, she's gonna bring me to take xray..
but i dont think there is a need le ba.. hurray!! hahas..

so sian. next next monday gonna start school le. im tired. this isn't a holiday to me at all lorh.
i had no time to rest.. as in going out with my friends, having fun, etc.. im so sorry that i did not organise the captain's ball thing as i said before. im really sorry. im not fit to organise one.. as my mom would not allow me go anyway.. my injury caused me a lot of trouble.. :( but what happened has happened. i cant reverse time. if i could, i'll reverse it to the time i was born. i want to change a lot of things. alot. because i feel that i had much regrets in my life.. so ya.. i would like to change them if i could.

recently, or still, im still having the BOF craze.. wakaka.. cant stop laughing to myself whenever i think of that. seriously, im sinking in deeper la. hahas. is that good or bad? 1st time i go all the way to dig out the actors background and finding 800++ photos.. 0.0 shocked? hahas. thats me. LOL (liyun also hor!) hahas!! must drag someone down with me.. and people around us are like affected by us la! haha! i don't know but these people came to talk to me about BOF(please don't be offended that i list ur name here xD): jieyi, wanling(abit?), vivian, amanda, jialin, chun hsin. i know chun hsin has been scolding me crazy that i kop-ed 800++ photos but you yourselves get them from me also! humph.. hahas... so ya.. you want photo or song can get from me ;D

did quite some homework today =D so proud now.. XD though i have not finished.. hahas.. its still an accomplishment can! hahas... don't know why im feeling emptiness inside me.. feel like.. an abandoned child.. i suddenly miss all my friends so much.. and its only like 2 days that i haven seen them. i think one of my bonds with a friends, who was closer to me is breaking away from me. at first i thought so, but sth happened and i felt that eh, its still there and i was so happy. but i guess.. its just my one-side thinking ba.. we really drifted apart..

im missing 6affinitians.. the stitched caused by the laughter we had together.
SYL!!! only 4 blocks away why always never see you de? :(
im missing 2ace-ians.. the tears we drop together after fights.
im missing WYCF-ians.. the time we sing child of destiny..
im so sorry i cant attend the gathering on 23june.. cause my mom don't allow.. yes. again, its because of my ankle injury.. but a few of you also cant go... so... no point going...

T.T i miss you.............................................................................................................................................

now have to do something le.. cause i dont know who will read my blog so i prefer to keep it as a secret.. its not a secret anyway.. but still, i think i keep mum better sorry if you wanna know xP
til i post again.. byex.

2009-06-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

cause i saw this at Izza's blog, so i want to write about it too..

to my dear friends from WYCF, especially those whom accompanied me through a CRAZY & FUN time.. IZZA, ENG HOONG, NAJAH, MAZIDAYU, NORIDAYAH, SUHAILAH..
if you see this, i wanna say: I MISS YOU!!! can we meet up some day? ;D but concentrate on ur studies 1st la.. i know u have your Os this year so ALL THE BEST kkaes ;D will be rooting for you girls mentally!

i cnt sleep with a vexed heart T.T

is there really such thing as an angel?

can someone please be him or her to lend out a hand to me to drag me outta this misery?

i had enough.

i wish i could be an angel, watching over you all.

i hope i could be the one who resolve all ur problems.

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2009-06-17T15:58:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO CASSANDRA!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VANESSA!!

may all your dreams come true ;D

... replies to tags:...
vivian - well, good that yours was a minor one.. cause mine isn't.
qimin - haha! ok la.. it helped me to smile abit more ;D THANKS!!

...start of post...
i officially announce that my injury is very serious.
until now have not recover yet. went to the sinseh again today.
thought my swelling has subsided so happy. but in the end i was wrong.
i guess i seriously should not have gone with my aunt they all on sat. but even my grandparents are out leh. what could i do? follow lorh. no choice.
after treating my leg to some super hot medicine, went to cut my fringe. for $2 LOL. but quite cheap cause my fringe very hou*.
*-this word makes me remind of something. haha. liyun if you see this, see if you know.. haha.
~as my SOULMATE you should get my message.. hahas... nvm if you don't.. haha
then went street 21 to eat then come home. i slacked for 1/2 an hour then on computer.
hey, today i very quai. i finished my ace-learning and chem ncelz ok.. felt so accomplished.. haha!

well today i went to the sinseh and he was like : (in chinese) you sprain again arh?
i was like : (in chinese) HUH?! don't have arh!
then he say : (in chinese) seem very serious..
i was like : (in chinese) HUH? compared to the previous days, my sweeling gone down le. now only here(points to side of foot) pain leh.
he say: (in chinese) ya lorh. because here arh, is the part when you bend while walking so you cannot walk properly now. will pain.
my heart OS : ya ya you say alot of times already.
(but i never say it out la)
he continues: (in chinese) you walk alot is it? must wrap up if you walk alot.
i was like : (in chinese) must bandage myself? huh? you that time never tell me leh? huh.. tomorrow and the day after i going out to do project some more. you now help me bandage i tomorrow morning will take out le. very itchy. then how? i bandage myself?
he say : (in chinese) need. i suggest you go buy the protection for ankle, like a sock one.
- silence -

argh!!! next week councillor camp my mom forbid me go le. she wants me to fully recover then allow me walk. sorry verna, shehwa, promised you will pei you de T.T so sorry.. liyun also.. last 2 years i went you never go.. next year don't think got chance.. this year still cant go.. seems like we no "yuan fen" go together T.T and so the 19 june outing i don't think im able to go either. sorry eugenia.. T.T

waa waa waa~~

i don't know what am i suppose to do tomorrow. my mother don't want me go jiayu's house cause need walk quite a distance, she scared my foot cant take it. plus im walking at a snail's speed. how can i catch up with you guys? she thought of asking them to come my house but my room too small to fit 9 people. plus in the 8 of them, no one knows the route to my house...T.T how how how??

haix.. friday i don't care i must go compass. seriously no time le. im fighting for time here you know.. about... which i cannot say here. i don't know what to do about it. its too big a responsibility so i've asked you guys to help. anyways _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ confirm le ma.. so should be ok.

AHHHHHHH.......

-stress overload of homework-

fake reason: running out of time

true reason : been slacking too much! T.T

2009-06-13T19:29:00.002+08:00

replies:
shuwei: sorry i edited
vivian: i was wearing slippers. lol. n previous injury very easy act up again, esp a sprain.
wanling: thanks ;D
eugenia: i really need see how my injury's recovering.. the sinseh sae nd a few days to recover from the swelling.. i really hope i could make it :)
beatrice: i noe hu u r since u told me sth abt choir ;D oh btw, 16june choir cancelled k. take note! c u ;D

thanks all who tag, sms to wish me well and all. seriously a big THANK YOU! ;D
my leg is still all swollen but lesser pain and i went almost all ard spore tdae xD

aft my aunt fetched us, she went to fetch my godma at pasir ris den we wen sembawang to eat dim sum wif my grandparents and my uncle. den we wen sun plaza cos dey wan buy 4d and we wen ikea 2 eat. AGAIN. haha. den we came bak 2 my grandma hse. so nw im postin at my grandma hse wif my godma laptop.

my godma scolded me in a v funny way for nt telling her i sprained my ankle in pasir ris park den she sae she can zoom thr n treat me. lols.

haix. u noe wad.. tdae, i was walking bhind my ah gong wen we were walking n everyone was lookin at me as if i was sum freak ><><>

took damn damn lots of fotos n made a comic strip bt i dun haf adaptor so nex tyme den i upload ba sorry. and and.. sorry to shuwei. i edited my post. n erm...

HAPPY BELATED 15TH TO KAIBIN AND JUNYUAN.
paiisehh i 4get write tat tyme n ystd din use com.. so.. ya.. psps..

wtf?!

2009-06-11T09:15:00.004+08:00

im sorry shuwei i've forgotten you.
too many to name...

i sprained my ankle again. this time it hurts alot more than the last time.
and because of this, i am banned from going out without an adult to play.. right mom?
sianx.
ystd, was quite a splendid day, taking away all the injuries..
mine was the worst lorhs. im so so so sorry guys. i spoilt the day.
from the bottom of my heart: sorry. and thank you.
thanks for coming to the class gathering (ard 15-18 ppl nia ><>

well, met yeehang eugenia and shuwei to buy the things for bbq-ing the previous day and regretted it yesterday because we had to bring home everything and bring it back when we actually could go to cheers and buy before entering the park.
anyways, i met yeehang and jialin earlier, to see them eat. lols. and i met gretel sylvia eveline wenbin and nigel. only saw wenbin at first then i realise sylvia sat beside him. sorry syl, i didn't know you cut ur hair... lols. u look very chio. ;D and i really hope to go sentosa next week with you guys but i don't think im able to do it now. T.T then met up wit the others namely shuxian, angela, shuwei, jieyi, chengyork, joel, kokting, gerald, kabin then waited 1 h for eugenia and tengda.. cause eug's slipper broke then need go back change new ones, then dragged a bit of time.. then met them at bus stop then get up bus, meet jingsi. i seriously cannot sit the back seats of the upper deck mans. its so.. i dont know how to say but i felt like vomitting la then i damn damn damn headache so moved seat to right in front with jialin. (THANKS FOR PEI-ING ME!! ;D) then reached walked to pasir ris park. started argueing on which area to go blah blah. found a spot, sat down. started bbq-ing for 2h not a success, until the "pros" came.. walau, u guys know then why never help when start? =.= anyways, after that me and eugenia, with kaibin and joel went to cheers to buy drinks. then came back, still slacking, a while later, started fire.. then cook 5 satay then add more charcoal and felt so sorry for chengyork.. cos he paid like $9 for his marsh mellows and satay but he only add 1 and it was uncooked ><>

thanks yeehang for reminding me to relax, even called to ask ur mom and sis for help..
thanks shuxian and jieyi for talking to me, massaging me. (and jieyi for the BOF songs xD)
thanks eugenia and jialin for being my support, talking to me, massaging me.
thanks kokting for ur lame jokes and ur scooter
thanks soulmate for calling my mom ><>
thanks wanling who helped me to carry my bag out.
thanks jialin and jingsi for carying me out. i am very heavy right? must go on diet le.. hahas.
thanks shuwei for feeding me fishballs ;D
sorry for forgetting...&
thanks everyone who were concern about me, helped me to feel and get better ;D

i love you guys!!! im so so sorry i spoilt your day.
thanks all for helping me. as well as bringing this outing to a success.
i am really sorry.
and i am really really happy and glad that i have you guys to be my friend.

2009-06-10T10:13:00.005+08:00

dun wan 2 think so much le..
dun wanna spoil e mood tdae...
just hope everything will go smoothly later ;D

so to be high....
having the Boys Over Flowers craze now.. LOL
shuai de shuai mei de mei...

arhhh!!! cnt get enuf of dem.. LOL

i esp luv dem... <3333333

ga eul and yi jeung. dun u think they have e couples face?

do u believe in soulmate? i do. ;D

so loving...

the fans were so carzy!!! i guess these photos were made for them..

but i bet this one below is a computer generated one.. damn funny. e baby gt such weird hair...

F4!!

group photo..

different versions... from left: manga, taiwan, japan, korea, china versions
i believe in all of e characters, e korean ones look e most shuai and cute and pretty ;D

the relationship mindmap..

well, happy ending ;D
i've got over 500++ photos

i oni uploaded some. wan get frm me.. kekes..

tat dae download until my right click spoil ><>

i oso have 2 hp themes 2.. v nice ;D

ard 15 original sound track 2..

thanks to chunhsin (for 1 of e theme)

thanks to wanling and jieyi and liyun for wanting the photos so i downloaded and shared and i have now

thanks to liyun for some songs

thanks to shehwa for some songs ;DDD

LOVE YOU GIRLS!!

BOF.BOF.BOF.

lets be bof kkaes... haha

i mean best of friends ;D

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2009-06-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

vivian, a little misconception here.
maybe you don't know them well enough but regarding to what i see, they are definitely not quiet. anyways, there is no time for bonding. we have invitations to perform on the 1st july. how much time we have left? how many practices? we added practice but if the strength is less then half, why bother? the last part maybe harsh, but according to ms yong, we need quality not quantity. if choir can survive with only a handful of people so be it. a gold choir is hard to get and even harder to maintain.

juniors, whoever read my blog and is from choir, please do not get offended. in fact i hope that you could prove me wrong. i seriously need some response from you girls. too quiet is scary. it will cause more implications too. things work differently in different ccas so juniors, please do not compare. we might be stricter with you because we hope that you will strive better. please don't make what i say come true. turn my words over. prove it to me that you can do it. can you? 0.o

for those who have read my blog, the reflection or wadeva rubbish i have put here and feel unfair or what, confront me. i am willing to take responsibility for what i have put up. i definitely will reason out and iron out the unhappiness. i hope there would not be any grudges here.

to seniors or juniors or friends who have read this and gave comments, i thank you. no matter its good or bad, i will accept it sincerely. i hope i did not make myself sound too harsh or something. this reflection is seriously how i felt. not a word of fakeness..

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theres sth stuck in my throat!!! =.= n its terrible.
its lyk sth stuck inside bt i duno what. it is like going up and don at my throat and i feel so damn terrible! i guess its also e reason i couldn't sing out sumtymes... =.= no matter i swallow a big gulp of water or a bite of banana and swallowing it without chewing as my mom suggest, it just won't move!!! freak it!!! i vomit until nth le it still would not come out!!! what the hell is in there? a tumour? move away la!! grr.. anyone got any remedy, please tell me asap. i'm feeling terrible.

Reflection on bad choir practice on 8june2009

2009-06-09T11:43:00.003+08:00

i duno y bt i just feel that i shuld put this here. mayb 2 give e juniors a little idea of what e seniors r thinkin. pls dun get offended, nor copy 2 ur reflection. its a great offense 2 do that.

Reflection on bad choir practice on 8june2009

Practice was bad, mainly because only a number of people put in the effort to sing well. Yes, we are going through a hard stage as we are learning new songs, but that should not be an excuse for us to sound so bad. Ms Yin is angry because she has to give us constant reminders on our basics and yet we did not register it into our brains. We are just too dependant on her, on our section leaders.

To be frank, I feel that many of us have taken a step back to relax because the SYF is over, we have gotten gold and there are currently no competitions ahead. We sang soft and dare not voice out. We haven even forgotten the basics of our posture, our smile, the lifting up of our eyebrows, cheekbones, soft palate, to support and even the most important thing of all, to breathe! We did not listen carefully to the piano or the other sections well.

I am not pin-pointing to anyone in particular but in general, for a song like dancing queen, it is known to be a pop song and we should be very cool while singing it. However, everyone is just singing it without the techniques! They are just singing for the sake of singing, not putting in effort to treat it as practice for an actual performance. It might be a pop song, but we are still singing it as a choral piece, so we can’t sing it the way we sing in karaoke. As Eugenia has said, alto is singing it like a funeral song. Our notes might be only over a small range, but once it is with the melody, it will sound very nice. Sorry to say, but I can see that the seniors are more into the groove than the sec ones. Maybe the juniors think that we are not the melody so even without us, the piece will sound nice and hence sing softer but they are wrong. Without the accompaniment, the melody will not sound as nice, everyone in choir has a different role to take and every single person is important, not just because you are not singing in the melody means you are not important.

Another way to put it, this just means the juniors is thin-skinned. They do not dare to sing out loud when singing in a group, much less, singing alone. Even after a few times, no matter how Eugenia tried to make them sing louder, they just do not change. They do not dare to voice out their opinions even when they have something to say. An example will be when Ms Yin prompted us to answer her where was our fault. Other than the sec 3s and maybe one or two of the sec 2s, none of the sec 1s actually speak up until much prompting, even after Ms Yin said you could repeat what someone has said before.

For this, I feel that we, in the role of a senior or a committee member in choir have failed. We should actually taken the initiative to talk to them or to organise some bonding activities so that they will feel closer to us and open up to us, instead of leaving all the work to the teachers as what Ms Yin has said. We hope to pass on the message that choir practice is actually fun, not boring! I believe if they dare to open up, we can help to resolve more of their problems like shyness.

Once in a while, the talks are good, but if that happens too often, many will be thinking that it is tiring and they will not think much into it. They will just think that it is a waste of time and take no notice of it. Ms Yin also says that something she tells us 5minutes ago we will forget 5minutes later thus we will not be able to improve. All of us are at fault, for not trying hard enough, for not remembering what Ms Yin has said before. At this rate, I do not know how long we could finish learning the song, much less perfecting it.

As a sec 3, I think that we are a little too passive, its time we take up the role of seniors to guide and lead the sec 1s to a correct mindset in singing as choir, with a passion. Quite a few have been stepping up to take the lead. Take Joyce Ting and Joyce Ong for example. They are not picked as the section leaders, but they stepped up, took the initiative to teach the section. They did not wait for people to guide them, but instead they stood up, which was good, as our choir has lesser seniors who are musically-inclined.

I want to suggest more activities and opportunities to interact and bond with our juniors, so that when we know them better, they will trust us and open up to us, so that we could help them in their problems.

It is really saddening to see the juniors and the whole choir being chided like this every time. The juniors are at a loss when Ms Yin left, as it is their first time seeing her leave in anger, and I would hope that it is the last time too. I wished that the juniors really had a lesson learnt this time, because I do not believe that is the best they can do. The seniors have gone through it, so can the juniors. I believe they just need a little more pushing from us to open up. Although some might be a little unwilling, I think the seniors can help.

In my opinion, I learnt that we should not spoil ourselves too often, setting an easy goal. We should have a higher expectation of ourselves so that we could strive for greater heights. Actually, this is also the time where the sec 1s learn to be independent. They could not always rely on the seniors as seniors have to leave one day. It isn’t easy. However this is an unavoidable stage. It isn’t easy I agree, but everyone has to go through it. It is just a part of life. We could not remain stagnant and stop practicing. We need to strive forward and learn more. Once we have gone through this stage, the future will be easier and more enjoyable for them.

As Ms Yin has said the gold award that we achieved this time was not an easy one. I believe everyone who participated in this SYF will have the same sentiments too. It is exchanged by tears and hardships of our work, so we should not slack, instead we should push ourselves more so that the next one would be easier. We should not be the batch which causes NC Chorale to fail. We should always carry on the never say die spirit and continue to strive. We should not let our seniors down, throwing all their efforts away.

It was really hurtful to see Ms Yin getting angry and scolding our section. The feeling is seriously not good. The seniors will definitely feel the pressure after going through so many big events, after so much scolding, talks. Although Eugenia and I are the only ones who cried, I believe the others are remorseful, seeing their faces in the music store. If anyone did not feel bad, or did not think about what really went wrong yesterday, I am sorry to say, but they are not fit to be in this choir.

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2009-06-09T10:08:00.004+08:00

replies to tags=>
vivian: o.o LOL ><>
shaw en: hellos. thanks fer tagging once agn ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE DOROTHY!!!!
though u will nt cum here bt i just wish 2 say..
may u stay happy forever and earn lots n lotsa ka ching $.$ hahas.. ;DDDD

update on this week...
erm..
yesterday, choir was bad. need do reflection.
...
today going out wif sum ppl 2 buy things 4 2a cg tmr.
i really hope 2 see it being successful.
tmr 2a cg
successful or nt? oni 16/17 going? pathetic.
thurs dental. oh gosh.
0.0 pain =.=
fri.. shhh secret..
hahas!!
sat n sun same routine..
SIGH...

i dun wish to break down agn.

i haven touched my homework yet >.<

die. how? history and chemistry i oso havn hand in.. how?

"when you don't think of it as a chore, you'll find it enjoyable and it'll be finished in no time."

is tat true? i guess it is.

i wanna find tyme 2 do it. nex wk i have no activities lining up so i guess, i'll chiong then.

i really nd chiong. to buck up. to improve.

i've set a goal.

n i wan 2 reach it.

wish me luck ;D

and BOF still rocks! wakaka.. damn crazy over that show with LALA.. hehe

n we downloaded lots n lots n lotsa pictures wakakakaka.. plus e OST too ;D

im back..

2009-06-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

hellos all..
sorry to not be updating these few days..
thanks alot. really alot alot for those who tag. i seriously don't mind you guys spamming here hahas.
seeing ur tags make me feel so happy ;D

anyways, im kinda busy wif lessons, ccas, projects n stuff so didnt really cum on9..
oh.. erm of course excluding e tyme watching BOF.
oh gawd, im super crazy over tat show tat i've 445 fotos of dem in my fone.. LOL
and all the soundtracks.. kekes.. LOL
BOF ROCKS ;D
lets be BOF.. lols...
best of friends la!! haha...

hmm.. thank you all for all ur concern ya..
i sincerely thank you..

im sorta alright.. stress up part.. sorta ok le la.. mux learn how 2 balance.. :D
bt recently i've been thinkin alot..
did i change? to become more loathsome or sth? cos its lyk more n more of my fwens turning awae frm me~ T.T
i seriously swear i don't want tat 2 happen.
im jux lyk JANDI (lol) i rather i am hurt than my fwens gettin hurt bcos of me.
so if by any chance u see me changing.. pls tell me.
i'll reflect n im,prove.
i promise i wuldn't make a din.
sum1 sae im v happy sum1 sae im v emo.. so wad m i? a 2 sided snake?
hell shit. i dun wanna repeat of my life. i dun wan. hmm sum ppl noe abt tis..
its seriously hell then.. haix.... newaes..

tdae was hectic.. as usual.. lols..
hmm.. had lessons, sportsleader camp, choir.. damn tired.. brain stuffed wif full of things..
wah plus tmr n e nex whole wk im going out agn.. wen m i gona finish my hw?
chem n hy supposingly 2 b handed in by tdae i oso nv.. =( uh-oh...
haix.. i really wish thrs more tyme for hol~
bcos this mth isnt a hol for me. its torturous!!!
things piling up at one end n events cumin up..
i dun haf a tyme 2 break.. bcos wen i break im still thinkin.. =.=
lata i bcum wad mdm siak sae a kuku den nd go c psychologist.. hahas..
den repeat yr? 0.o i duno.. i hope not~ v lang fei shi jian de..

newaes, i gotta get my precious slp le.. thanks fer cumin.. byex ;D
c ya soon! :)

2009-06-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

had lessons and choir today.
quite tiring. wanted to watch boys over flowers but now.. totally no mood le.
haix..
changed phone to W705 put in 400+ songs.. still haven had e tyme 2 listen 2 it and delete it..
dun nd envy me. cos i realised 1 thing.
1 thing that made me very very sad.
{note: emo is a very big word. dun use it} suan le~ i dun wish 2 rake it up again~

this world is full of questions.. issn't it?
why do we need to study? why this? why that?
i have been pondering over this for a very long while..
having headaches cos of that~ haix.
why why why why why why why why why why why???
arghhh~~ im getting crazy mans.. i dunwan do netink..
suddenly jux wish to die..
too many things cramped up in my mind.
am holding up too much responsibility that is not mine.
can i let go? but im afraid i will let you down..
will i?

dad: do u need english tuition?
me: duno.
~after a while
mom: do u need english tuition?
me: ...
dad: i ask her liao she say duno.
mom: den ask her again la. she fail eng leh. nex yr wan retain n waste 1 yr meh?
me: english tuition got use meh?
dad: den u oso dunwan read more newspaper. u fail ur eng leh. u wan still wan go poly anot?
~after a while
mei: eeee.. i dunwan this one (refering to the threads that is dangling out frm e cushion)
dad: den how? we got no qian (as in money) ma

what the ****** *****?!
what are you implying? say for me de arh? hell shit..

2009-06-02T20:40:00.003+08:00

Replies to taggs.
THANKS ALL FOR TAGGING!! ;D
so happy so many ppl came.. hehes..
Vivian: sorry, i don't understand what you mean by giving up...
Shaw En: hellos! ;D thanks fer tagging. didn't know i had the same blogskin as valarie ><>
Beatrice Wee: hellos! saw u tdae xD sorry for the late replies ya.. thanks fer tagging here too ;D
Shaw En: its ok la.. hahas..
Vivian: ahyos.. dun so petty la ><>
Pearlyn: hellos! linked. ;D

2009-05-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

so near yet so far~
everything may seem to be in a fairytale appearing right in front of you.
but once you move your hands, wanting to touch it..
everything DISAPPEARS..
everything. i seriously mean everything.
its all a fake. because you will realise that you are actually in a fantasy world.

did literature? this is what im feeling now..
go do some prediction ba.. hahas..

i may appear to be fine but im not.
i sorta... i don't know how to say...
stressed-out?
well, i know my results are just a borderline pass.
i promise i will work hard.
i don't want to give up anything i am holding onto now.
i hope you don't force me to let go.
because i'm not willing to.

why do people not do things on time?
why do people disobey rules?
why? why? why?

i really hope 2a and 3c class outing will be a splendid one.
however, judging on the way people reply...
i think the 2a one might not be a success T.T
i'm sorry to say that shuwei.. >.<
i really want it to succeed.
but its seems like not all of you have the same mindset as me.

tdae was quite a fun day..
morning at bench damn lotsa ppl came 2 look 4 liyun n i 2 giv us $$ LOL
i collect e choir foto den liyun collect councillor foto de $$ ma.. haha
den liyun kip saein we rich women LOL
den i 2 mani $$ until lost count.. hahas in e end still nd jialin help hahas
ate dumplings for recess.. alot ppl oso brin sch eat.. funny sia.. LOL
LONG time never eat le. hahas. taste quite nice worh xD
den nth much.. until aft sch, wen 4 councillor duty.
slack in e councillor rm.. den joked alot wif e others..
tats wad i lyk abt doin duty. havin lotsa fun while slackin.. haha!
those ppl r really horny mans LOL
LOOK UP!! hahahahahahahas... insisde joke~
azizah, jiawen, riduan, alphonsus, jerilene, jieting, nickson, lyon, gerald and jazin will know..
ahahaha..

den aft duty ate sum snacks n wen 2 find jialin~
hahas... toked la.. den erm was a little emotional..
but i finally let it out so my heart oso more comfortable la..
THANKS SO MUCH SIM JIALIN!!
thanks so much for being there for me, listening to me when i needed someone.. hahas
you just know me too well.. haha.
is that good or bad? LOL

2009-05-25T21:18:00.001+08:00

haix......
i duno wad to do~

i duno wad i wan to do~
suddenly felt tat thr is no aim in my life~
at least wen thr is xam, we were working for it.
nw i gt bak my results.
okok la bt i nt happy
bt wad cn i do?
i cnt turn bak tyme...

work hard 4 e nex test?
errr.............................
for such a lazy bum lyk me.. suan le.. lols.
haix...
wen choir had syf, we had a goal..
tdae everi1 was so listless.. tho i was quite hyper i duno y.. lols..
bt im lookin 4ward 2 e day e seniors cum bak..
sorry juniors i dun mean.. bt seniors make me felt more at ease~ hahas... i really miss dem so much.. its so different without them. its really feels weird. i even feel lyk im totally in a new choir lyk u guys.. so new.. tat i duno wad 2 do n turn abit timid... lols
as the financial n career training saes. hahas.

well, ystd i wen out agn.. lols..
took alot of tymes of LRT n MRT.. haha
wen 2 heartland mall met up wif bth n tch 2 eat kfc as lunch den go bth hse den wen hme
n go out wif tch.. rmb its e nex stop!!! muahahahahaha. inside joke.. ehh @ 1st wan go watch angels n demons de.. tch sae v nice... budden travel 2 vivo, cnt catch it @ 1640 at gv le so we wen bugis junction shop. den took neo.. my 1st tyme take retarded neo.. hahas... so mani funny post!!! tch fault la!! lols. bt it was quite a new experience nv take wif her b4 ;D quite nice leh.. hahas... den bought big badges. so cool!!! i wan all of dem!! lols...

newaes, its 9++ le bt i wanna change my blogskin leh.. looks so sian.. haha.. go 1st~ byex..

2009-05-24T09:48:00.002+08:00

these few days, i have been very busy. so didnt blog
but i was very happy when i was busying! LOL
thanks to those who was with me through this few days..
from wed til ystd. i really had a great deal of tyme.
THANKS ALOT!!

am lazy to go thru wad i wen thru bt roughly,
thurs i had a great tyme wif wanling jieyi liyun taking photos lyk crazy!!
teletubbies rock!!
wakaka.. inside joke ;D

ystd wen out to watch night at the museum 2..
VERY FUNNY!!! n i think its worth it ;D i recommend it worhs! haha
hmm wen wif wanling jialin jieyi liyun jeannie adelyn angela pearlyn cassandra qimin yeehang kokting junyuan tengda weekian danny juncheng. large grp outing ;D
wen p.s. den vivo. play water until i wen hme @ 8.. almost kena scolding bt i tio injury ma..
so nv kena.. haha.. injury is worth it la.. wanling dun feel bad.. its jux a prick
or mayb prickS bt i gt it/them out. dun worry. hahas... jialin is oso ok 2 ;D yay! hahas
those ppl outside as in.. adelyn angela pearlyn cassandra qimin yeehang kokting junyuan tengda weekian danny juncheng, if u read this.. erm, wad i wana sae is.. i duno if u were waitin 4 us.. mayb out thinkin 2 bhb but thanks alot anyways.. sorry to take up your time too..

later going to grandma hse.. supposely i nd 2 go nw..
help me dad look aft my sis.
bt i sae i wan slp late den i go myself.. whoops.. haha
newaes, i doin sth so gt reason de ok.. lols..
k la i gtg le..
bye for now..

a very nice song that me n liyun were once crazy over.. haha... go search..
sang by gal de.. guy version nt nice.. (sorry chunhsin bt i prefer e gal version)

"Truly Madly Deeply"

I'll be your dream

I'll be your wish

I'll be your fantasy

I'll be your hope

I'll be your love

Be everything that you need

I'll love you more with every breath

Truly, madly, deeply do

I will be strong

I will be faithful

'cause I'm counting on

A new beginning

A reason for living

A deeper meaning, yeah

I want to stand with you on a mountain

I want to bathe with you in the sea

I want to lay like this forever

Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,

I'll make a wish send it to heaven

Then make you want to cry

The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty

That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of

The highest powers

In lonely hours

The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby?

You don't have to close your eyes

'Cause it's standing rightbefore you

All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream

I'll be your wish

I'll be your fantasy

I'll be your hope

I'll be your love

Be everything that you need

I'll love you more with every breath

Truly, madly, deeply do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I want to stand with you on a mountain

I want to bathe with you in the sea

I want to live like this forever

Until the sky falls down on me

2009-05-21T09:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN LING!!!
阳老师生日快乐! ;D
and i just realised i forgot to say
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ADELYN!!
so sorry i forgot..
wishing all may babies a very happy birthday!
may all ur wishes come true~

`LOVESS <33

2009-05-20T22:56:00.001+08:00

qimin blog gt all e fotos =.= hahas... go her blog see lorhs ;D

EXAMS ARE OVER!!

2009-05-20T21:22:00.003+08:00

QIMIN, LIYUN, JIEYI TAKE NOTE!!!
OOOOHHHHH MYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDD~~~~~~
wakakakakakakakaka.....

oh yes! finally.
today was the last paper ;D
we're free!!!!! hehes...
today amaths!! haix.
definately fail..
totally no confidence in all my papers :(
sad~ haix...

newaes, wad i wanna sae is..
e most interesting thing of my whole week!!! xD
CHIONGED home wif ah yun n ah min den bathed... n wen out...
sorry jieyi.. was late..
den saw choonkit n kaibin.. n alot alot alot others...
wen 2 eat jacks place budden wen we order, e person sae students meal 1.30 den gt..
it was 12.30 den eh... den we were lyk shit! how? bo bian... bought ice-cream xD
so paiisehh la... qimin still kip lawfing =.=
den wen shop abit in cp.. nth much...
den eat kfc.. hahas... tat was our lunch~
btw, i saw CHEN WENBIN frm ex-6a '06... hahas...
SOOOOOO TALLLLLLLLLLL lah!!! humph... hahas
den wen sat mrt 2 bugis street..
1st tyme go thr~
不会大啦 hor =.= walk until leg so suan la!! hahas..
newae, go shop shop shop..
dey bought quite alot of things xD nice nice~
made me feel so lao tu.. haha!
must save $$ liaos.. i wan go thr buy stuff... haha!
my bdae dun buy stuff 4 me la.. gimme angbao cn? hahas... kiddin..

funniest thing..
QIMIN looking for this??..
OHHHHHH MYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDD!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
everything started liddat.. e 1st shop we step in was a zinc shop den qimin saw a bag she lyk
bt we all sae go walk walk den sae..
den aft all our shoppin, we wen bak, cos ah min sae she really wan tat bag... den we were still decidin if 2 go in2 e store, a sales guy came out, kip asking us go in.. dun buy tdae nvm, buy tmr xD den we sae saw wad we wan le.. den show him.. den started crappin xD he so humourous ;D
den liyun tempted 2 buy oso.. so we wen outta e shop 2 cor deir moms 2 double confirm if dey cn buy den e guy carry the bag qimin wanted n came out! ahaha~ den kip showin us xD xD givin us e look, buy la buy la.. hahas...
den den den.. their mom allow so we wen bak in la.. den me n tat guy "quarrelled" over e importance of the bag color or e price hahas... den in e end, i let him win lot XD HAHA.. den we chose e color 1st den discuss price~ e bag qimin wanted oso haf purple den she lyk purple ma.. den e OMG guy show her, she wan 2 try bt ps.. ask us try.. we dunwan.. den e OMG guy so nice help her try, den show her... a bit gay but he v cute!! hahas.. den qimin FINALLY try den she was lyk which one nice den we sae both nice... denn........
she said: of course la.. is me lehs
den e guy say: OHHH MYYY GODDD!!!
den we all started lawfin v no image-ly haha!!
(a thought by me ly n jy: tat guy lyks qm! xD)
den he say: did i say that too loudly?
we still continued 2 laugh..
reply to his ques: AHH DUHH~ hahas...
so now we 4 damn crazy over e OMG GUY. nw kip OMG-ing hahas!
so got mo-qi OMG tgt xD xD

hmm newaes, aft many many shops shopping,
our legs suan... so wen 2 eat.. quite nice la~ den wen 2 bugis junction 2 take neo
den bak 2 cp n sumwhr b4 goin hme~

so sad i cnt scan in e neoprints n show u T.T cos i nw usin laptop, no connect printer...
so i oni could edit a bit den post a bit lorh ;)

FUN FUN DAY~~

OHHHHHH MYYYYYY GODDDDD!!!! hahas...

THANKS QIMIN, LIYUN N JIEYI FOR PEI-ING ME GO BUGIS STREET (my 1st tyme) will forever remember derhs!!

THANKS ;D

2009-05-17T10:47:00.009+08:00

replies to taggs..

in general i would like to say...
hi all! glad that you tagged ;D thanks for cumin to visit ;)

to individuals:
yanlin: ellos! how r u doin? glad tat u nv 4get me.. haha.. thanks fer ur TAG ;D
catherine: hellos! didn't hear frm u from a long tyme le >.<>
vivian: haiya.. i duno wad 2 sae le.. i dunwan kip arguing with u.. do wadeva u wan ba~ but dun be angry if i dun accept ur gifts or return dem.. btw i nv delete ne post..

woohoo!
3 more papers~ 3 more days~
TO THE END OF MYE!!!
finally~ hahas

den we'll hav a 4 day break!!! ;D
congrats to all not taking bio nor rio tinto students xD
looking 4ward to wed...
definitely counting down to that day.. hahas

well, had a surprising fri and sat..

fri aft xam.. came hme.. den liyun came sae wan "revise" den in e end~ hahas.. i guess u no wad happen.. we din.. haha… haix, die liao.. until nw i haven revise.. mux chiong finish tis post n go revise le.. actuali on com 2 update choir blog on e schedule.. den drift until here.. aiyos… haha…bak to fri.. er whr was i? oh ya.. erm den we ate choc ice cream n choc den we were damn high.. tok lyk siao zha bo xD den ya lorhs... den drove her hme at 6+ cos abt 2 rain den my family wen out 2 eat.. at first go toa payoh eat e omelette wif oyster oni de.. bt nt enuf den on e wae hme my mom sae e ikea chicken wing v nice so my dad drove 2 ikea.. hahas! den we left my sis at the kids corner to play 4 45min while we eat... she was damn happy.. go in oso nv sae another word.. jux chiong in.. lols... den wen we n up 2 e "food court" its really v nice! ambience v posh oso.. though alot ppl...

rmb once i wen thr wif liyun 2 wait 4 jieyi n den go buy stuff at ikea, it haven open den we were waitin 4 jieyi oso den we go walk walk den we saw e "food court" its so posh can! its lyk buffet style take oreadi den go counter pay den gt e trolley... tats e best posh thing man xD hahas.. gt 3 layers.. den i go take oso.. hahas.. den in e end i bought a plate of fish n chips!! (not really nice tho) n 6 pieces of c.w. (superb!) hahas.. den finish go brin my sis den go hme... e auntie thr sae my sis v protective of herselves c e guys so rough she noe how 2 protect herself.. den she dun nid worry... hahas! dun really noe wad she mean budden.. haha!! =.= lols. den my mom v proud of her =.= lols

sat.. wen eat at sum coffee shop.. den go ah ma hse~ den go hme~ den go my 2nd uncle hse.. cos cousin celebrating 21st.. den go lorh.. brought my chem bks along~ bt read 3 pg n gave up xD hahaha.. took "family photo" with alot ppl missing and i scratch my leg against e chair until my leg po pi~ duno hu e hell behind me ask me go faster.. walau... den i scratch my leg... a bit bleeding.. den i use wet tissue put on it... wth~ pain =.= hahas.. den watch she diao~ lols.. until dun wan go hme XD hmm e food was ok.. alitlle dry bt i lyk e prawn salad n you tiao!! tats v nice n new in buffet... den wen send my grandparents hme, my sis balloon flew awae. den i wanted go take bt my mom sae dun wan.. den my ah gong go run n take eh!!! so teng my sis =.= i gt so mani cousins.. all at least 5 yrs older den my sis n another cousin.. we nv gt such treatment by my ah gong de lorh.. unfair!!! haha.. den send dem hme n off we cum bak..

quite interesting la.. tdae.. i tink in e nite goin my paternal grandma hse ba? i duno~ brin chem thr 2 study.. dun haf high hopes.. cos nw its 11.11 liaos... wooooooo.. haha.. nvm.. er den 4+ goin out~ dun haf much tyme 2 study so i gtg... last 3 days!! jiayous!! ;D

dun wish to think about it nemore~
i hope tyme could allow me to master the art of letting go..
(kop-ed e v inspirational phrase frm yvonne senior's msn p.m. xD hope u dun mind yvonne!)
but i really felt tat wae~ haix..
T.T
im learning.. will u giv me tyme?

2009-05-14T20:27:00.004+08:00

since i dun think many ppl will come here, lemme write a direct msg 2 u...
VIVIAN!!!!!!!!!!
what did you buy for me again? somemore from precious thots??
u crazy girl~ make it the last tyme... because i gotta repay u..

dun waste ur $$ on me la k~

MYE's going on~~ T.T
jiayous everyone!!!
left e maths which is tmr, chem n mon, phy on tues and amaths on wed.
my aim is to pass all of them ;D
but~~ i dun think i cn T.T
i seem 2 b losing hope in my aim T.T
i really dun wish to fail any of my subjects..
or i wont know the consequences~

HELP..someone out thr who has superpowers or sth?
pls bless me that i couls pass all my papers..
i just want an average of b4, even if its a low one.. its enuf..

please lorh~ took these photos wen i was revisin... jux nw nia...

how did i concentrate? ><

playing with effects of negative and highlighters >.<

see the black spots? its actually bubbles.. a great effect right? hahas

i can be sooooooooooooooooooooooo random mans~

the 2nd pic i took... too bored le~

the 1st pic i took... i gt revise ok!! ><

again playing with the effects of my fone on my specs~ looks fantastic.. ahaha

nice right?

LOL

i love photography...

taking photographs in many angles, making sure they are perfect..

my aunt owaes get pekchek wif me for taking pics cos i owaes retake wen nt nice wen she tinks its ok.. haha.. im a perfectionist ma... xD newaes, gotta go back in2 my books...

waiting for the 20 to arrive, as that will be the last of our mye...

OH YESHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! counting down 6 more days away~~~~~

i hope...

i really wish...

that i could...

hold on...

and not give up...

盼望着14和21的到来 ;D

希望... 我不会再感到失望...

因为我经历过的实在太多太多..

多到我自己数不清.. 也不想去数了...

我放手了吗?

还是放弃了呢?

2009-05-12T16:14:00.002+08:00

replies to tag:

vivian: thanks ;D u must jiayous too kkaes ;D

lippy: thanks fer tagging :) of course i rmb u ;D c i so gd.. LOL jkjk LINKED ;D

jingsi: true la.. but i still think that your _____ de ____ beta den ours xD

thanks fer e tok ;D

我不知道为什么要用华文来写..
就是想..
也可能是因为今天是高级华文的考试吧
觉得没希望了.. 哈哈..

没心情读历史的我..
来到这儿... 写些废话.. 不想读就请离开吧..

我认为最近我................. 好像变了许多..
我是在冲凉时突然觉悟的... 哈哈..

我不想在恨任何人了.
因为记恨对我而言实在很辛苦..
我感到非常的笨.
我不喜欢别人恨我, 那么为什么我还去恨别人呢?

从今天起, 我想从新寻找我做人的态度.
我不想再像以往一样了......
我不希望我因为一个人而感到开心, 难过.
我要为自己而活..

我要习惯自己一个
不要再去打饶你了...

2009-05-11T18:31:00.003+08:00

YES. I FINISHED READING MY GEO.
reading oni lurh T.T
haven start on my history ehs~ die le die le~
but quite accomplished already... i copy out all the more important notes..
20+ pages eh!! so waste paper n ink ><
hahas...

tmr start mye le.. JIAYOUS!!!!!!!!

well, fri slacked.. sat wen out 2 pray n eat dinner.
pray at e temple opposite ncps.. saw alot ppl..
jiawen, my aunties, avis, a senior..
e worse thing happened was wen we ate lunch den my grandma disappear!!!
search 4 her lyk siao.. den my sis wen toilet cum out my mom ask her search 4 ah ma cos she lost den she said "ahma lost arh? errr...(den she started looking ard) THERE!! ah ma there." then she found my grandma.. so lihai rite! her eyes so sharp~ haha~

dun wan tok abt hr nw... she jux provoked me..
damn angry wif her n my mom nw.
walau.. eh hellos... is her fault cn mux u b so angry at me? mux u shout at me?
damn u. had it liao lorh
how mani tymes liao..
idiot!

suan le~~ goin off.. no mood sae or do netink le.
sianx

Graduation

2009-05-08T21:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY VESAK DAY!!

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!

tomorrow's vesak day.
going out to temple~ den to eat dinner for mothers' day...
bought some pressies tdae~ but haven wrap!! argh~ no tyme le >.<

newaes..
wow.
tyme past really fast~
its 2009 may 08 already.
haix~
thinking back~~ the tymes are really fun..
its gona be mye soon. dun think i will have enuf tyme 2 cum on9 le~
tho nt much ppl cum here,
i will still miss you computer!! hahas..
see you agn soon..

Graduation================

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I
Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And
There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

drifting apart further and further~

2009-05-07T19:55:00.005+08:00

hellos. im back.
i cnt seem to concentrate nowadays.
i will just blank out... not as in faint.
but stare into space and see nth.
wads really happening to me mans...

too much study until i become "gong'??
oh help..
haix... today the list of hw goes on..
but i aim to finish these first.. i hope xD
amaths 5.1, eng compre, chem 08 mye
>.<

den.. wad i wanna sae is.. today is O.O hahas..

pe was super torturing.. my leg cramp!! T.T

muscle was damn stiff...

ran 2 rds den train standing broad jump den lunches bt wen i reach e 2nd set of sbj, i gave up.

my leg hurt.. den i tell ms pey she ask me rest... just in case i "relapse" cos i sprain b4..

lyk a mth ago?

worst cases were eugenia and eliza.

they cnt even walk! >.<

den gerald, qimin, jingyi, jennifer, laureen, all here pain there pain, face s white s a blank paper... some vomitted.. etc etc etc...

haix.. our energy really hor~ worse den 3b.. we admit la ms pey... dun torture us liao >.<

den mr rahim saw... cos aft pe was his lesson..

den he go tell ms pey.. ms pey came 2 check on us... lols...

newaes, tdae was npcc day..

mr tee n ms tan came in our class wif their uniforms... so cool... lols..

duno hu kajiao dem ask whrs ur gun? hahas! ;D

aft sch.. stayed in class n waited for jialin while mr goh class gt physics remedial..

den i was given the nick ni tu by ben ben zhu ><

my fwens are tang niao bing, xu yuan shu and yang meh meh hahas!

dey damn cute 2 create this kinda name la~ bt i prefer 2 cor her ben ben zhu xD

duno if she wuld c this.. ahaha..

den wen cp wif jingsi cos we met her on e wae..

den wen ljs eat.. den duno y tok abt sum buddhist things...

damn random.. hahas...
den tok tok tok... den i realise __ was such a good _____

wif so many _________... tat our _____ dun haf >.<>

haix... i demoralised liao.. envy envy jingsi.. hahas...

den tok abt alot of things la~

thanks fer joining me 2 tok ;D

den i left 2 find qimin n wanling @ cs cos qimin wan buy sum sweet.. den wl wen hme..

buy puff saw jas n fwens.. ;) den bus-ed hme wif qm...

quite an interesting day wif so mani events happening la..

hope tomorrow will be better.. ming tian hui geng hao.. =D

2009-05-06T22:57:00.001+08:00

2009-05-06T20:10:00.004+08:00

im typing this in a rush~
sorry if i type wrongly~
but newaes, dun think hav much ppl cum c la..
i noe u gt, vivian... hahas

now gona chiong hw. going ncelz print sth~
oh gawd.. tdae was.. a erm... duno how 2 sae dae >.<>.<
den eng.. [i tio 4hrs detention!!! tat was aft sch den i noe de.. T.T walk pass den saw ms tan den she tell me T.T cos i nv complete my hw... budden i didnt noe tat nd do.. haix.. its just 2hrs de lorh!! councillor so nd double punishment =( unfair T.T haix... suan le... ]
hy.. nth much.. copy notes..
le was super slack! "les-ed' wif verna XD wakakaka.... ben ben zhuuuuuu!!!!!!!!! =D
den maths... errr... wen thru hw..
pc changed seats, wen thru swine flu things den tok abt boxes...
hahas..

ppl, must take care of urselves... dun let urselves fall sick~
im liao >.<
exam cuming everyone mux jiayous alright?! ;D

well, wad i really wana sae is..
im sick
im tired
i nd a rest >.<>

see even she saw thru u...

2009-05-04T21:31:00.001+08:00

hmm... today was~~ so-so lorh..
THANKS QIMIN LIYUN N RIDUAN
for helping me out wif my heavy stuff..
brought hme alot of things lyk retrenched liddat haha
cos 1) scared of swine flu
2) bring home revise.. (er... m i tat guai?? haha)

den tdae.. i learnt sth...
TO BE OPTIMISTIC~
right eugenia? hahas...
duno y will be dragged in2 e tok.. newaes,..

THINK POSITIVELY!!!
because life still goes on~
right mr goh? hahas...

hmm.. all i cn sae is im trying 2 let go~ n im learning 2..
so help me alrights... =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOEY TENG ANN!!! ;D
16 le worh!! older den me by 2 yrs le~~ HAHA!! xP

GOOD LUCK TAN CHUN HSIN N BOEY THENG HIANG FOR YOUR MID YEARS!! ;D
do ur best my dears~ JIAYOUS!!
must pass with flying colours arh!!!

8 more days to mid year examinations for NCH-ians...
JIAYOUS!!
whoever came here to visit~~ ALL THE BEST!! ;)

why not u ignore me?
i might feel beta tat wae~

LOST

2009-05-03T10:25:00.003+08:00

im not supposed to be online.. but somehow, i find my way here.
i am lost.
lost in my sense of direction.
lost in my sense of sight.
lost in my sense of hearing.
i don't wish to be in the tornado of friendships again.
but.. could i don't?
i don't understand.
wheres my fault. to cause people to hate me.
i am willing to change.
but will you give me a chance?
i wanted to go. but you grab hold of my hand.
i stopped in my tracks and turned back.
to come back and comfort you.
but you pushed me away.
so whats the point?
to suffer the torture that you wanted to give me?
fine.
i am willing.
but.
i believe you treated me as a nobody.
although you left me beside you.
yes i understand
every friendship and person is important.
because to me it is too.
but have you thought of my feelings?
the way you treated me.
how i felt?
did you put yourself into my shoes and see the whole picture clearly?
you didnt.
you jolly well didnt.
i am starting to get sick of this feeling. how?
someone teach me...
HELP~

Failure is success if we learn from it.

Courage is fear that has said its prayers.

2009-05-01T16:06:00.004+08:00

-EDITED-
COS I REALISED I MISSED OUT ALOT OF POINTS
COS I WAS RUSHIN 4 TYME TAT DAY.
SORRY.

k ...
this shall be my 3rd post of e day xD
too bored le. being left at home...
i seriously dun lyk being at hme.
nor in sch..
sch these few days r getting ______. (insert a word urself)
evry morning i wake up.. all i tell myself is:
sianx. another day. sianx nd go sch.
all ard me.. all my fwens.. all having a little mood swing.
may it be gd.. may it be bad..
it affects me a lot. yes ALOT.
beside a person who is emo-ing, i cn totally feel hurt.
beside a person who is totally high, i can be even crazier.
all in all... wad ive learnt is.
seriously.. friends do influence us. our feelings.emotions. BIG-TIME!
not oni our fwens. our family does too.

i noe im random~ is reali reali v random..
wad im thinkin nw:

wen i was young, we went genting almost every yearend.
everytime i go into the themepark..
everytime i go into the rcade.. im jux lookin 4ward 2 e nex yr's trip.
budden wen i go older, sum rides i cnt take, cos too old, sum rides i cnt take cos too young i find it nt fun den i suggested 2 my aunt sae dun go le.. i regretted tat decision lorhs.. cos im missin e family times we had tgt. w/o leticia, w/o lydia. just me as e oni kid. so bein spoilt. haha. n tat tyme.. mama eng n mom wasnt so moody de lorh. dey nt as easily angered as now. ><>

den pri 5.. i wen malacca for the p5 educational trip (counted as camp la).
i still rmb so vividly tat mr adam scolded me n my roommates in front o all the pri5 for cumin down e meetin area late 4 dinner n made everi1 2 wait 4 us. bcos we oni had 1 bathroom n 6 of us had 2 share. we cnt dun bathe worh bcos we played water tug-o-war . ms wong still argued bak for us. den in e end he came 2 apologise saein tat he nd 2 show sum power 2 e others n it serves as a warning for dem 2 nt b late 4 meetings.. we were lyk wth. den cn chu qi on us la issit!!! sigh... i miss ms wong... i miss 5A.. den in p5, ms wong left. mr quek came.. our whole class was so united in2 angerin him. until mr chia came 2 tok 2 us lyk thrice? hahas. i rmb he confiscated zhan's prefect badge, making andrique cry for nt lettin him go toilet, making e whole class rebel against him n we were so united! lols.. we ate in class guang ming zheng da - ly.. den make him cry.. hahas. sigh... the fun tymes we had tgt...

den yearend, i wen china..
e days were ok la.. missed e tymes wen we shop and bargained. hahas. bt i LOVE the tyme me n my mom stayed tgt. altho my dad din go bt i find tat my mom v fragile. it was e 1st tyme i saw my mom almost cry at e airport. bcos my auntie's luggage overweight den e person was lyk r u along wif dem den my mom answered yes n e person sae den u mux clear sum of ur luggages... den my mom threw awae a whole bag of clothes cn. **** my auntie la. i noe i was emotional bt u shuld c my moms face cn... walau. thruout e whole journey my mom was e zui shou wei qu 1 lorhs. so wad if dey r rich. idiots la!!! >.<

den cum bak... my mom was pregnant wif my sis... cnt go abroad nemore. plus tat yr was wen i was in p6 so we dun plan 2 go newhr...

the days in 6A'06. oh gawd.
those days are.. hectic!! hahas.. all the fun n laughter. tears n joy that we shared.
whr r they now? i miss them so much.
we are a bunch of crazy kids. not caring of all the problems.
play n play n play is all we do. hahas.
after psle u could c us in e bball court everi lesson. hahas.
ren lao shi brin us down.. den mr gene lim oso..
i still rmb dem la.. dey aowaes tell us abt stories n experiences in deir life.. a bit lyk mr goh la.. haha bt dey were vvv nice... nw ren lao shi is a tutor liao.. no longer teachin in ncps.. so sad!! cnt visit him T.T
den thr was this competition... NCPS TALENT SHOW if im nt wrong...
sort of e last competition b4 we graduate.. i rmb i was sort of e organiser den made e whole class set up a show.. den theodora was e person staying at hme.. nth 2 do so turn on e tv n switch switch switch channel... den janelle n sum others kip taking a "next channel" board 2 walk past e stage("tv") its so funi la.. den e programmes inside... i still rmb e 1st part was yanzhan n julian making a news report in taiwan den we all wen ah bian xia tai.. u noe... tat tyme was e feng bo abt chen shui bian... so ya lor e add tat in2 out prog. wif nixon n larry actin as chen shui bian n e other guy.. i 4gt his name... den gt raj cookin.. wif yc.. v bodo de... den still gt slim fit programmes... haha... damn damn damn funny~ janelle acted as a guy n sum ppl durin recess cum ask me.. hu's tat guy arh~ haha... v successful lorhs... den we ended dancing hsm we're all in this tgt..
alot of ppl used hsm de songs 2 dance n input in deir items... but we go e 1ST!!! hahas...
i rmb ms allie was e mc... den she was lyk saein hus e winner? issit 6a? n we really tot we won so we screamed lyk shit... budden is fake de =.= hahas... den aft tat she wen on issit 6b?? den we were lyk chey~~ hahas... den wen she announce e result e winner is gt dance de.. we were lyk haix.. shuldnt be us le la.. budden e result WAS US!! so damn happy!!! cos we spend all our tyme in e music rm n dance rm 2 do up this thing... pleaded everi cher 2 ask them bring us to rehearse.. esp mrs chua.. she realli supported us all the wae.. tat performance, competition... was lyk e 1st successful show we put up. cos durin rehearsal.. we screwed it all up n everi1 was so anxious la... haha.. bt it turned out great.
thr was also an inter competition of gals n boys.. gals competin bball n boys soccer.. dun really rmb wad e guys gt... if i nt wrong, we werent even qualified 2 plae.. haha.. cos we oni gt 9 guys in our class xD den GIRLS GOT 1ST!!! haha.. double joy right... so shuang man tat tyme...

i miss all of u.. oh gawd. i missed tat stage. tat tyme. tat moment of glory.

and.......
the days i spent in the sch library in pri sch. is actually how much i love it. mrs ng. ms ng. yanting. julian. all other librarians n parents volunteer. all the students hu visited the library. how e wae it is operated. i rmb it clearly. bt it changed. evrything changed. I HATE THE NEW PRINCIPAL ******. u idiot. y mux u change awae mrs ng, ms ng? why? u @#$%^&* i hate u. u #$%^&*(. u hurt me deeply. u changed awae all my fav things. u changed it. it'll nv b e same s befor already. no way it could be the same... i hate u. why mux u do it? idiot~

all e chers have also b turned awae by u le la!!! ******!!! all the chers tat ive known. i still rmb dem til nw. saw sum of dem in nchs, brinin students for heritage gallery tour.. omg those kids... make me rmb my young tymes... arghhhhhhhh... how i wish tyme could turn back T.T

den nearer to the present.. theres 1 n 2A'08
in 1a.. i suffered much.. my 2nd second chicken pox outburst, making me change my whole circle of friends.. i miss the tyme tgt wif her. i miss it. seriously. i still rmb e 1st day in sec sch u noe... i was so damn anxious... until i found her. den we started blabbin none stop... hahas... in class we were e oni ones tokin.. saein abt e class, our classmates, etc etc. well den she came along broke us up n tada...
so i was being alone for quite a while... cryin everyday, hopin tat tyme will turn bak >.<>

i miss 2a. i really miss.
i even miss the tymes wen i m stress out.. i miss e tymes i was kena caught in a dilemma. i miss e tymes tat we cried. i miss the tymes we quarreled n squabbled. all those r all still in my head.. i cnt erase dem off. how how how? somebody teach me~
i miss the tymes we were in malacca.. all the times that could have been better. all the times that could have been better memories. im so regretful of what i did... so so so regretful T.T

sec3, well, all i could sae is.. our class changed. alot? i guess.. things were not e same wen we had our camp. things were jux nt e same. i dun understand why we could change so drastically over the tyme.. i guess we are jux showing our true colours now?? 0.0 i duno. i jux hope tyme could reverse bak in2 e past.. hoping tat we really could change bak ><

then there is the seniors leavin us... for their "o" lvls...
T.T leavin choir~ i will surely miss dem.. all the crazy tymes tgt... i guess im closest to this batch le ba~
jessica, wenxuan, trecia esp.. cos dey r wif me most tymes... arhhhh... y mux u leave...
i will still c wenxuan n trecia nex yr ;D but i'll miss my fellow wenqi lyk siao... ehs mux take care kk,.... I LOVE YOU!!!

WHY COULDNT TYME B TURNED BAK???
WHY?
WHY?
WHY??????????

T.T

living in the past is so not good you know.. well, i guess all of you don't understand my feelings~ i just.. i just...
i need to learn.
i need to learn.
i need to learn the technique of letting go.
i cnt hold on foreva.
i cnt hold on.
im tired.
i need a break.
but i just couldnt let go.
what will happen to me?
may fate decide it all....

2009-05-01T15:17:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BORED!!!
SIANX!!!
TIRED OF SLCKING..
DUNO WAD I RITIN xD
HAHA!! FUNNY MA?
SO COOL RITE..
code msg..
eh paiisehh din noe my caps was on.
bt i dun wan retype..
lazy la...

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xP

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2009-05-01T13:26:00.005+08:00

today is 01/05/2009

HAPPY

LABOURS'

DAY!!

though im nt happy cos i cnt go out >.<
nw still gt ppl cum tempt me go out ><
cry le la.. hurhur~~~~~~ T.T

but im
DEFINATELY SLACKING at home!!!

was suppose 2 do:
eng argumentative essay (overdue damn long ago)
eng corrections
eng duno wad bk
eng research (half done)
amaths 4.5
amaths 4.6
amaths 4.7
emaths tb duno wad ex. (forgot le >.<)
amaths revision ws
emaths revision ws
chem ws
phy ws
phy on9 ncelz ws
.
.
.

a long more list of things that i haven do..
at first all i plan do today de
in the end..
here im slcking >.<
help me mans!!!

HELP ARH!!

xams cumin in lyk 2 wks..
im still here...
slacking away.

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SLACK!!!

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HAHA~~

damn boliaos...
m suppose 2 do research..
damn lotsa things >.<
liyun finish le..
i haven
aw...

i hate hw.
i hate sch.
reason being of my _____
haix.

T.T

cant stop missing YOU.
all the times we had tgt.

i hope we'll continue being fwens~

replies to tags:

shuwei: hi. haha. thanks for the compliment n tag! ;)

catherine: hellos. long time no meet xD

vivianne: chill.. hahas ;) hmm.. no probs wif "everything i gave u", though i dun tink i gave u much, haha.. hmm.. thanks fer e compliment.. just sum random things la.. thanks fer e tags ;)

2009-04-30T21:53:00.004+08:00

the moon does not stop revolving around the earth.

the earth does not stop revolving around the sun.

time does not stop moving.

as the saying goes, 时间不会为任何人而停留.

so people, cherish everything that is around you now.

CHERISH EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW.

or else u will regret it in the future.

like me~

missing YOU like CRAZY.

2009-04-29T18:15:00.003+08:00

tdae...
lessons.. were ok la~~ quite interesting~
esp eng xD most interesting period ever!! haha. ms tan so cute =)
den hy was e presentation. sianx. nth do.
den le. fun!! =) i <3 xianglaoshi mans!! ;)
den maths.. oh gawd. im so damn confused.
err.. stayin bak aft lessons on sat, since ive missed so much, 2 ask cher ba..
newaes, i haf 2 stae.. wait 4 jialin den eat lunch den go cut hair..
well.. bak to tdae.. qimin n liyun cum my hse do e ecareer.. it sucked la. haha
my realistic is lyk 3 points nia LOL
hmm din noe i cn b judge haha
kindergarten principal.. human resource manager.. even CABIN CREW!! xD
qimin was lawfin lyk mad wen she saw e occupation of cabin crew O.o hahas
newaes, had quite a fun tyme la..
den dey tokin n foolin ard i started edit pics.. den qimin sae dun sensor her face cos she look nice den i edit until liddat...

LOLS.. haha.. qimin i gt respect ur privacy lorh!! i post in front of u xD
ur instructions nt 2 sensor ur face de ma xD
den i edit summore.. this tyme its nicer la ;)

so nice rite!!

hope all my fwenships will never end and will last longer den ever~

and more to be coming??

frm e bottom of my heart i realli realli hope that tyme wuld stae still n not change ne1..

bcos..

THE ONLY CONSTANT IN THE WORLD IS CHANGE.

and I HATE IT!! >.<

2009-04-28T20:32:00.003+08:00

that was e best 4 pictures of wad we took on sat, liyun... hope u dun mind me postin it up xD
well, sat, was my cousin's birthday celebration.. den i v bored so i asked liyun along.
haha.
we so shou liao xD met my family lyk at least 5tymes... nw all my family members noe u.. haha
den wen www. gt free admission ticket. ehh NOT FUN DE!! =( nth much 2 sae le~
hmm.. gtg.. wan watch ping pang yuan last ep xD (bt my eng hw haven do ehs =x whoops.. haha) cya..

sum pics of wad i edited... taken aft syf~

FWENS FOREVA!!! ;)

I MISS SENIORS!!!! T.T

correction: i miss choir!!!!!!!!!~

im immune to ppl hatin me so hate for all u wan.

i shall not care nemore.

2009-04-24T21:01:00.003+08:00

YAY!!
my leg is soooo much beta ;D
THANKS ALL
FOR ASKING ME IF I WAS OK.
especially wanling.. specially sms me 2 ask me. thanks lovess ;)
THANKS FER UR CONCERN. IM ALRITE ;D
altho i cnt step down 2 hard...
cos will still pain..
m still tryin 2 b careful~ hahas

tdae is a ok day lorh~
no wan 2 mention bout sch. nth fun..
tok abt aft sch~ ahaha..
hmms.. wen cp wif eugenia, angela, jialin, qimin, liyun..
den eug n ngel wen 2 buy things 2 eat in ____ haha.
den qimin n jialin wen 4 hot fudge
me n liyun roamed abt cp xD
den we all met in macs den i bought hot fudge cos i couldnt resist e temptation
n eug bought a $1 coke xD
den qimin n jialin wen 2 roam abt~
haha
den window shop shop shop
den cor my mama, n it turn out tat she in sk polyclinic..
so ask her send me liyun n qimin hme cos ngela left liao n jialin n eug live in hougang
at 1st wanted go cut hair.. budden e auntie no free :(
i wan my haircut!!! so hot lurhsssss~

hmm was tokin 2 vivianne all e wae~
ehs vivianne, i nt pretty la! liyun looks prettier!! ;D
im sorry i din recognise u in e mornin.
i gt STM de. couldnt rmb faces...
so sorry~
n im nt a gd counsellor~ sorry.. duno how 2 help u >.<
p.s. THANKS FOR E VOODOO!! ;D

害你破费真不好意思...

sch's boring~ hmm.. same old things la~
amaths test.. fail liao.. dun nd sae xD
hmm den other lessons? boring~ haha.

tmr celebratin leticia bdae at chalet... e ntuc resort de.
1 rm nia.. walaus.. duno wad 2 do thr.. beta charge my fone 2 max so i cn listen thr xD
and brin hw thr do?
since i dun think i cn finiah ne by 2dae.. xD lols.
e oni thing is duno dere gt place 4 me do anot..
haix...

eh btw, THANKS AMANDA FOR GIVING ME E CD.
i really nd e mp3 tho... u noe y de.. send me asap k. thanks.

listen 2 e songs n cried. omg.
vvv touching. esp kami >.
i realise i cnt tok 2 seniors face-to-face xD
will heartache den cry.
miss dem 2 much le ba..
tdae durin lunch trecia said hi n ask me if i gt miss her~
pls lor.. no nd ask.. I MISS U GALS LYK MAD!!!~~
thrs no choir.. feel so empty..
lyk go sch 4 nth... hahas..
waitin 4 e arrival of 25 may.
choir practice!! duno if e seniors wuld cum..

newaes, to all...
GOOD LUCK IN ALL UR TESTS/EXAMS ;D
n to NCSO: JIAYOUS!! LAST 5 DAYS!!! ;D

2009-04-23T17:45:00.007+08:00

today~pe..
dancing servela blablabla.. hahas
i sprained my ankle..
so sat at sum place den watch dem plae.. dey lyk sittin roller coaster scream n shout haha
so fun ;)
hmm.. during practice, i fell n sprained it..
cried so much.. so no face =x haha

JIAYU THANKS SO MUCH!!!

FOR RUNNING DOWN TO THE G.O.
GET ICE PACK FOR ME
AND DEN
HELP ME DOWN E STAIRS
DEN CARRY ME ON UR BACK, BACK TO CLASS.

THANK YOU.
THANK YOU.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

thanks jingyi also!! for holding me down e stairs n keeping me accompany..

and wanling, liyun, eugenia, jialin, qimin for sms-ing me wen im scared as im on my wae 2 go 2 e chi doc..
esp liyun n qimin.. hu pei me waited 4 my dad~

and all who send me their regards.. askin me if im ok.

THANKS!!! IM MUCH BETTER LE ;D

qimin n choon kit scare me!!!
tell me it wuld b lyk hell~ lols..
budden its jux v hot cos e doc go put sum herbs in a bundle den help me massage
thru out e process i was clutchin e chair la.
its at hme de.
i was so scared he suddenli will go press
budden he sae its small matter
but will grow big if nv treat well.. lols la.
hmm he sae i hurt my ruan gu n nerve.. so i nw bao e place v weird is just below e knee n e normal ankle place.. he sae tmr morning cn take down le.. for fear i scared bein lawf in sch.. budden if successful, nt itchy or wad i will wear 2 sch lor.. i dun wan wear sch shoe... xD

tats all abt tdae.. so excitin n fun xP

2009-04-22T22:05:00.002+08:00

guess who?? hahas.

ITS US!!! =D

CIO CHIO QIMIN n me..

CHIO CHIO WANLING n me...

this are some of the fotos i took on sun wen liyun, qimin, wanling, jieyi came my hse 2 do hy project~ sowie din take fotos wif u jieyi~

GOLD

2009-04-22T20:08:00.007+08:00

i got e class video of 3c cheerleading. want c get frm me =)
thanks yetlin! ;D

ohh yes!!!
we've got a gold~~
sorry for the late post...

ysterday was great!!!
GOLD!!!
woohoo~~

but its also the last day of our seniors practice..
dun tok abt tat 1st la.. so emo..
ms yin commented on us too. in choir blog.
so sad la.. read the part whr we could bia for an honours but din T.T
newae, wad done couldnt b undone n gold is gd enuf le ;D
oni gt 1 sch gt gwh ystd.
NANYANG GIRLS' HIGH
went their concert last year tat 1... v nice... =) expected la ;)
n thr were oni 3 golds!!! us nanhwa and CHIJ toaPayoh if im nt wrong..
congrats!!!

well every thing started frm....
e nite b4 i had a hard tyme gettin 2 slp!!! ahhh~~
haha. broke e rule. slept at 12.30 xD
woke up, w/o alarm at 5.24
damn xcited... brushing my teeth n eattin my breakfast..
den i wen 2 tie e bun...
my gawd.. duno wad happen~ my mom took so long to tie it budden it loosen n dropped
den i re tie e ponytail 1st den suddenly
BOOMED~ SA~
it rained damn heavily (just lyk 2 yrs ago)
bt i din noe..
stll tot it was a bad omen xD

den wen sch bla bla bla~
did alot of starjumps n strechin exercise
tat i think i overstretch myself n nw havin muscleaches... T.T
den den den damn nervous de la...
T.T
den the moment came...
n past~~

oh gawd... i cried =.= ahahah
aft i wen in vch of cos.. wen it was dark den i cor out 2 eugenia n our tear dropped.
almost same tyme xD

den hear 3 schs n we wen bak 4 AS =.=
den on our wae bak... damn HIGH.. was really HIGH...
reached sch le also HIGH (as if e gt gwh)
haha

hmm ya lorh den geo den went jieyis hse
den go cp wif dem den chiong go vch scared no seats
haha gt 1 part damn funi..
we at 1st chiong den tired n stop.. den sum1 shouted
WAN GWH DE RUN..
everyone CHIONG ARH!!!
hahahahaha~~~

den e ms sim(noe her frm WYCF) read out damn fast cn...
in front of us all bronze silver.. if not cop.. except nanhwa ;D
WE SCREAMED 4 NANHWA OSO EH.. SO GD RITE...
xD mux reali congratulate ms yin... 3 choirs:chung cheng high main, nan hwa n us all GOLD!!!
den it came.. e momnet we were all waitin 4..
"CHOIR 91 NAN CHIAU HIGH SCHOOL... GOLD."
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
hahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahah...
eugenia bombarded.
i dropped 2 tears~ den stopped ;D
budden went out.. damn high... jessicia la!!! i stop liao she still scold me~
sae wan cry tgt de...
den i cried =.=
haha
mainly cos i tot of dey leaving so... v ji dong...
y mux dey leave... i dun wan dem 2 leave!!! ahhhhh (everytyme sae gt tears de =.=)

newaes, den we parted waes..
as in eugenia, lihui, jieyi, shuwei, jasmine, yanling (if i nv rmb wrongly) wen marina square
2 shop - bought e same earrings (n left me out >.<) n eat macs. haha me jesi trecia sharlene yvonne siyu wen bak cp yoshi wenxuan left at cp cos her mom dun allow.. so sad y our mom so strict de. den i was damn bu shuang wif my mom ystd... walau sae our gold lucky de. @#$%^&*($%%$#$%^&*9^ la. :@ of cos nt so little things nia la.. budden i dun wana publicise it~

den hme lorh..
finished a HUGE PACKET of LAYS all by myself wen watchin tv n surfing e net.
haha
3 things at once.. xD
was v v v tired. so head touch pillow n slp.

hmm. tdae... CO syf... silver 0.0 so damn shocking to EVERYONE
and YES im saying almost EVERYONE
we expected them to get at least a gold la... dey damn hiong cn..
even sun oso cum bak sch practice...
den CD oso gt a silver... 0.0 shocked. damn shocked.
tdae is seriously a bad day..
ppl jiayous ba.. work hard for syf 2011.
dun slack.
start preparing nw!!!
n 4 choir~~ work hard 4 our japan trip!!!!!
n aim for honours nex nex yr k!!! =D
some fotos for u guys...

morning.. tyin buns, going thu lyrics n "picture" of e song

committee!!! ;D

sec TWOS on the bus cumin bak sch~

front (from left): lihui, shuwei

middle (from left): crazy eugenia n crazy jasmine

behind: jieyi

US!!!!

after much much effort to push everyone tgt in this foto, we managed 2 squeeze in xD

thanks sylvester for helping us take.. cos wenxuan cnt find any tcher
so jux drag him frm outside n took this...

group foto!! lazy go sae hu.. but i love this vvvvv much!!!

COOL!!! ;D

group foto.. but its diff worh... yan ling skill nt gd xD

kiddin.. lighting bad la.. tats y so dark..

AMANDA LEONG!!! she came bak 4 lyk 15min? den chiong off for her class.

think she was late

omg. so touched.

thx for cumin bak!!!

ahya shit

realised i din take foto with sharlene n yvonne eh!!! T.T
nvm nex tyme gt chance de..

jessica n me (wenqis!! ;D) in vch =x

Lastly, a group foto of those hu wen 4 e results~~~

gtg. chiong hw T.T

byex for now...

2009-04-20T20:12:00.002+08:00

GAWD!!!
ITS TOMORROW!!!
ALL E HARD WORK~
ALL E TEARS N SWEAT WE WENT THRU..
TOMORROW...
WE WILL KNOW.

CHOIR WILL GET A GOLD.
CHOIR WILL GET A GOLD.
CHOIR WILL GET A GOLD~ WITH HONOURS!!! ;D
haha. made this cheer up tgt wif yanling jasmine n jessica..
tmr aft syf still nd go bak class walaus.... so no mood la... =x worries worries...
ahhh im so excited nw... CHOIR JIAYOUS MAN!!!
LESS DEN 12H LE...
JIAYOUS!!!
dun 4get wad ms yin tot us worh~

tdae nv do nehw...
was chattin wif choir mates abt tmr...
ahhhh~~~~~~~
6.30 will noe result le... oh gawd!!!!!
so nervous xD excited xD
duno if cn slp anot.. haha xD

and i feel bad >.<
jessica n trecia will noe e reason..
to YOU, if u r reading...
ermmm.... sorry???

oh gawd. tmr's e last day e seniors will be wif us.. T.T
kami i think of tat will cry le lorh xD
I WILL MISS U SUPER DUPER UBER LOTSSSSSSS

ESPECIALLY JESSICA, TRECIA, WENXUAN~~
had been closer 2 u 3... esp esp esp JESI~~ gawd my fellow wenqi...
i miss u lyk siao la!!!! u beta do well in ur "o" n go in2 gd gd sch den cum bak visit us k.
THANKS so much for being my fellow wenqi =D
all that u hve done for me, for us... I LOVE U!!
trecia~ thanks for pei-ing me go home... =)
THANKS.. LOVE U 2!!!
and wenxuan, thanks fer being such a gd president for this years...
being so responsible n everything =) loving n caring for us~
LOVESS <33

its just less den 12hrs awae le...
JIAYOUS CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-19T08:37:00.003+08:00

choir was great ystd!!!
had a fun tyme testing out tuot wif diff tempos of e piano...
all so disco de.. xD
and a great tyme deciphering white horses... its all abt waves lorh... make it so chim.. lols.
i had shivers for kami eh!!! OMGGGGG.. even Bernice cried... so touched =)
its gd la... prove tat gt emotion...
y did it oni happen ystd...
bt newaes, i love u girls sooo much... ahaha.
e choir spirit is bak mans!!! e feeling of syf is here. FINALLY.
sum what lyk 2 yrs ago. our fighting spirit. all ready to go out n compete le.
maintain this standard alright =)
wishin us all e best of luck!! ;D

looking thru sum choir blogs nw...
n i realise alot of choirs have clinched a gold or gwh...
stress sia.. lols...
but still, congrats to those hu clinched it.
esp chung cheng (main) for gettin a gold again =)
and fuhua choir frm a bronze to gold. CONGRATS!!!(eng hoong u mux b damn happy xD)

m missing WYCF so much... went to ZH chorale's blog and i saw sum videos...
ahhh... i miss e tyme thr...
though it was tiring but it was v fun n i learnt alot...
so sad eugenia wasnt ard tat tyme... =(
or not we might share e joy =)

WYCF-ers... if u c this...
how are you?? shall we meet up some tyme? =)
i oni noe quite a few of u.. bt its ok.. n alot of u sec 4 le right.. mux jiayous in ur studies k =)
i miss u...
the tymes we sing tgt..
all the songs tat we learnt..
SATB: Der Gan Ber Lipchen, Lebenslust, Ombra Mai Fu, My heart is inditing, EVERLASTING MELODY!! lols
COMBINED: Morning Tide, The Goose and the Swan, The North Wind and the Sun, Waltzing Malthilda, CHILD OF DESTINY!!!
until now i still could nt forget...
conductors: mr eugene rogers, mr bob chilcott... not forgetting mr terence toh for all their hard work in trainin us to sing so well in 2 wks... 10 songs.. hu wuld hav expected us to learnt dem all... its was so cool n e cheng jiu gan was so great la..
everityme i listen agn.. i seem to go bak in2 e past...

livin in e past was gd.
but nt practical.
we nd 2 live outta it...

im sorry... i guess i nd 2 post e white horses story sumtyme agn.. i nd go fetch wl cum my hse do hy project le ><>

NC CHORALE JIAYOUS!! 2 DAYS!! ;D

oh ya tmr is CD de SYF..

Chinese Dance JIAYOUS!! :D

2009-04-17T10:49:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVIS!! :D

4moredays to SYF
2morepractices left nia..
and our rehearsal on wed was KNANASAI
haix.
damn damn worried.
quoted from Janelle Tan(in her blog):

PLEASE SEE:
All the times here when I mentioned the Gold standard for the nchs choir, I'm not even sure if we're up to Gold standard. I'm just using it for comparison's sake. I'm in no position to say what award' we're going to get.

I said it already, so no excuses for saying that I think I'm very good by estimating the choir's standard okay. If you can't read this red, bolded text and say all that, then please go get your eyes checked.
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One by one, each of the nchs performing arts groups polish up their skills and troop off for Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging, I get more and more nervous.

One by one, each success story spans out. Band's Silver, which they've maintained for the past 4 SYFs, then comes ELDDS, whose award has yet to be revealed, and most recently, at 5pm today, International Dance's Gold.

As each one of these stories gets told, I get more and more nervous.
Inter. Dance brought their Silver up to a Gold. Their hard work, enduring their dance teacher's moodswings, doing all the jetes, plies and running around the school/hall, all the effort was not put to waste.

In the end, when you've gotten that Gold, and nothing can take that away from you as it's recorded down in the history books that nchs's Inter. Dance got a Gold, you know that all your hard work paid off.

When you've gotten that award, which signifies that you've gotten 80% and above, you know all your blood, sweat, tears, lack of sleep and stress was all worth it.

The nchs choir got a Gold in SYF'07.
But can we repeat it again this year?
In 5 days' time, in one performance and two practices' time, we'll know if all our effort was worth it.

When you get that Gold, the feeling of euphoria you get is so amazing.
It's funny. Gold and Silver are only an award apart, but the feelings when you get the two awards are so totally different.

I'm nervous. 5 days' time, 1.30pm, Victoria Concert Hall. Our fate will be set in stone. We can't change the flat/sharp note, or the shrilly cheena-piang sound we produced any more. We can only cry.

In 5 days' time, will we be crying in dismay, in disappointment, thinking that all our efforts were wasted, or will we be screaming, crying tears of joy?
Two more practices. One more performance, tomorrow. Five more days.

I'm scared. Judging by Wednesday's rehearsal standard, we're looking at a Bronze or a C.O.P.
Can the choir rise up over the constant inconsistency and pull off the Gold we know we're capable of, the same Gold we attained two years ago?

Two practices can make a HUGE difference. But ultimately, what happens on SYF day, if one section goes sharp/flat, everything is ruined, all the effort we put in gone to waste.
I still remember that day when Ms Yin stormed out on us, out of the String Room. I still remember the look on her face whenever we sing badly. She knows we can do better, she knows we can do a LOT better.

She knows we have what it takes to get that Gold.
But the point is, can we prove her right? Can we prove to her that her trust in the choir paid off? Or are we going to disappoint her time again?

I don't know what's going to happen. At the rate of inconsistency we're going, we could be a Gold on 20April's practice, and a C.O.P on 21st.
Anglican High's choir got a Gold With Honours. We all heard them at the Ngee Ann Sec choral exchange, we all know they're damn good.

But one day, can we match their standard?

I don't dare to hope for a Gold. Though I know we can do it, I'm too scared to get my hopes up, only to get disappointed and cry. I don't wanna hope, because the rate of inconsistency is seriously scary, how we can go from a Gold in the Meeting Room, to a Bronze in the rehearsal.
I just don't dare to hope too much. I'd rather not hope, and be shocked, than get my hopes up and get disappointed.

All I know is that, tomorrow, as I apply my standard blue eyeshadow from the Alto eyeshadow pot, I'll be praying hard.
Nanchiau Chorale, tomorrow's the last performance before SYF. Ugly blue "Snow White" gown or not, we've gotta show the school what we're made of. That we're not a Bronze/C.O.P choir, that our Gold in SYF'07 was not just because we were lucky. We've gotta show the school that we're truly a Gold choir.

On the 21st April, as the Twits pile into the bus to get to VCH, I may be getting high with them, being crazy with them, but in my heart, I hold a silent, desperate prayer.
God, please don't let us disappoint Ms Yin time again. Please don't let the teachers' efforts go to waste, please don't let Wenxuan be upset. I know Wenxuan's very stressed, and I know it's not easy for her. Please, God. Let this performance be a good one, let us show the SYF judges that we can do it.
God, help us get that Gold.
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

That's all I can do right now. Pray, and hope for the best. Cuz' whatever else happens, it's already history, we can't change it.

Nanchiau Chorale, Choir #91 out of the 129 choirs. SYF '09 Gold? Or Silver? Sweat or tears?
We'll know in five days' time, on 21st April

--THE END--

janelle, hope u dun mind i kop-ed ur blog post here...
well, my feelings after reading this all i could say is..
jiayous~~

its true 4 days, 2 practices CAN make a HUGE difference.
its time that we all wake up and strive hard towards our goal.
its not the time to pin point people and blame it on them..
its only the time to perfect our songs by putting feelings into it..

now its tyme for MY message:

NC CHORALE <33
though we might not be as good as we were 2 years before
(sorry, no offence to the juniors),
though we had many bad experiences recently >.<
let it not affect us.
They are just the downs of choir, and they shall be experiences of growing up.
Think of the lyrics when singing the song, put yourselves into the picture.
Add in more emotions and let the audience feel your soul.
Let your emotions plant a smile onto your face =)
Let the audience hear you smile ^.^
Prove to everyone who looked down on u that we can do it.
we CAN!!! :D
Lets "gold" for it together alright.
One for all, All for one.
Choir is a big family. We shall move toward our goal hand-in-hand.
United we stand, divided we fall.
NC CHORALE, WE CAN DO IT!! ALL THE WAY PEOPLE!! JIAYOUS!!~~

4days to chiong~~ JIAYOUS!!!
and for the performance later, SMILE!!! like theres no tomorrow.
you are gona rock the hall down, as wad yvonne said.
i noe u could!
come on, lets do it! =D

deep down inside my heart....

i could oni hope and pray hard..

no matter wad has bcum of u.. im willing 2 accept....................................... i guess.

n y m i so related to ABC?

ahahaha.

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2009-04-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

8 more days people!! jiayous!! ;D

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do we look alike? sumhow rite? gawd.. ahahaha...

felicia with her white psp
this pic so artistic rite? ahaha. i take de xD

US!! havin a crazy tyme... lols...

no, correcton dey havin a crazy tyme dancin while i was shiverin in cold.. lols...

pictures paint a thousand words.. heres wad happened on last fri =D

gawd.. i oni cn sae.. felicia im in love with ur room!!! ahahaha..

haix. im tired. too tired to bother abt us le. really. seriously sick of thinkin of it.

mayb i've given up.

mayb its tyme for me 2 bid farewell?

byes.

lalalala~~

2009-04-12T09:27:00.004+08:00

THANKS LIYUN & FELICIA for picking me up from the "airport" and pei-ing me on friday.
a long long story which i dun wish to repeat~~
newaes... wen felicia's hse n i oni could sae.. FELICIA I LOVE UR RM!!!
lols.. dey kip practicin deir dance den i watch lorh... i cnt imagine man.. leticia is joining c.d. in their sch oso >< oh pls... she? dance? ahahahahahahahahahahaha.. ok im so bad.. ahahaha.

ystd.. wen choir den 2 expo n shop... shopped for 4 hrs... legs damn suan cn... sorry correction.. is i pei my aunt n my ahma n my mom n my sis n my cousin n my another aunt shop lorh. haha. wad i bought was oni a piece of choco n a large packet of pocky. den all is my mom, my aunt n my ahma buy de... dey bought over 300dollars cn!!! OMG la..

hmm.. gtg.. byex.

sorry bt i cnt find e happy me frm b4 agn.
yes. i noe. i tao ren yan. n mayb cos of sum reasons.. i've changed.
i've been slackin.. thinkin of u evry tyme. n evry tyme i tot of u, it hurts me. tyme n agn.
i've had enuf. bt i

dun dare 2 tell u. u've changed...

I miss you.

2009-04-12T09:15:00.002+08:00

Replies to tags:

R-IDuRian: THANKS for the TAG =) ehhs.. chocolate shuld b u giv leh.. still ask frm me.. ahahaha..

Eng Hoong: hellos!! my syf is on 21st april.. 9more days away... :S wad abt urs? u mux jiayous oso worh ;)

JL: hii.. u r jia lun? sorry i duno u.. but newaes, THANKS ALOT for ur jiayous for SYF =)

Eugenia: Thanks.. i duno how to explain to you bt its hard to not think abt it.. but newaes.. THANKS...

im in the wrong AGAIN (not surprising~)

2009-04-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

1st day of sec3 tat we nd go class 4 flag raising.
it rained in e morning..
pt cancelled wen up m.r. 4 practice
haix. we din do well agn.
12 more days.
4 more practices?
e cme ques really poppin up in my mind nw.
can we do it?
can I survive thru it?

sigh.sigh.sigh.

tdae's duty is damn hectic..
chiong here n thr 2 make sure refreshments was ok..
walaus.. its no fun de lor...
funniest part was bringing the cakes n water ard e staff rm n gettin lost. ahahahaha
all chers hungry. LOL

hmm hmm hmm...
gt hw bt lazy do. m pissed off at MYSELF!!

y m i so stupid.
shuldnt sae at e 1st place.
i really shuldnt hav.
i din noe tat e consequences wuld b bad.
fine, hate me 4 all u wan.. i cnt stop u.

im jux feeling ridiculous.
wad issit abt me?
stupid? noisy? quiet?
WHAT??????
buay song me confirm gt reason de rite~

tok 2 me so sian.. dun tok la!!
fan zheng dou drift awae le..

T.T 几天了? 我忍了也够久了...

你可不可以就这样离开我?

请你别再伤害我了.

就算我求求你吧..

离开我,让我好过一些.

我真的快受不了..

我真的很怕我再也无法控制自己的情绪..

我真的很怕我会跨下来..

我真的很怕~~

信不信由你...

today

2009-04-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

today was a bad day..
hmm.. dun wanna elaborate...
all i cn sae is tdae is T.T
haha... saw this on e pray pray thr... seems true lorh..
(read frm top to bottom, starting from the right to the left..)

so i decided 2 heed its advice. ahaha.

aft sch tdae, did amaths 3.2 n 3.3
THANKS SHU XIAN!!! for teaching me almost every single ques =.= haha
cos i stupid ma... duno how do.. luckily gt u ard. =)
mdm siak still came in2 class ak nd her help anot. haha. funny seh..
den shuxian asked chinnann for mr tien's notes...
DIN NOE MR TIEN SO CUTE!!! haha.
saw this in his chem notes.. xD

so cute rite!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

gtg liao.. still gt lotsa stuff haven do T.T

byex..

im sorry. i no mood high.

2009-04-06T21:15:00.005+08:00

something happened today.

n i dun wish to spoil my mood nw.

haha. suddenly so hyper. damn lols.

hmmm 1st i wana sae:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN TING!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TENG DA!!

though we now never contact le.. but still i wana wish you

ALL E BEST IN UR STUDIES N LIFE =)

心想事成 k =)

sorry that i didn't prepare anything for you.. no tyme >.<

den...

THANKS MRS CHEW, MRS SIM, MS YONG FOR E FILE.

15 MORE DAYS CHOIR~~

JIAYOUS!!!!

hmm.. guess im still suitable for alto =D

changed bak 2 my a2 4 turot..

budden e sudden change agn is v weird 2 me n i will go sharp..

nw nd relearn =( nvm.. evrybody jiayous tgt k =)

15.... just a mere 15.

well.. today...

dun wish to sae much..

jux mention tat this year is getting suckier as the days goes past...

u understand?

as predicted..
i told u it wuld happen.
c... nw it happened.
y is my 6th sense owaes so true?

u dun understand me. seriously

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2009-04-03T20:39:00.003+08:00

18 DAYS!!

CHOIR JIAYOUS!

THANKS RAINA, NINA & JOYCE FOR E CUTE PRESENT =D

for the 1st tyme...

i wished my 6th sense was nt true.

i understand. bt im sorta jealous?